I HATE not being normal
Re: I HATE not being normal
I also feel this way too. I don't want to feel ostracized for my attraction, I want to fit in with everyone else.
Am I not simply a human being just like you? But out of your norm.
Re: I HATE not being normal
What is normal?
If normal is the average of all things, then no one is normal. What makes people interesting and special is what makes them different. No one gets to choose what makes them different, everyone is different in countless ways. For you there is one thing that you have identified as something you don't want because you think it makes you different in a bad way, but I would ask you to rethink that because I think that is one of the most beautiful things about you and others different in that way.
You notice young people, a whole group of people who are mostly unnoticed and ignored.
You see beauty in young people and are attracted to that beauty, that is far better than being repulsed by someone.
The next person doesn't notice kids, doesn't care about kids, wouldn't put down a drink to rescue a drowning child. Are you really as bad as you're judging yourself?
We all have to be careful to not buy into the silly lies and spin that some say about us. I am 100% sure that you are not a bad person, that the world is better for having you in it, that you have impacted people in positive ways creating positive ripples in the world. Just because you can't see them and are hurting from the cold words of others doesn't mean those positive ripples aren't there.
I would say stop judging yourself unfairly. All people judge themselves unfairly, some unfaritly negatively, some unfairly positively. If you really feel in a spiral then consider meditation, there are some good techniques to inwardly reflect and find the inner beauty. But even without those you can just accept the words of those around you here who can tell you that you're a good person that is a postive member of this community.
If normal is the average of all things, then no one is normal. What makes people interesting and special is what makes them different. No one gets to choose what makes them different, everyone is different in countless ways. For you there is one thing that you have identified as something you don't want because you think it makes you different in a bad way, but I would ask you to rethink that because I think that is one of the most beautiful things about you and others different in that way.
You notice young people, a whole group of people who are mostly unnoticed and ignored.
You see beauty in young people and are attracted to that beauty, that is far better than being repulsed by someone.
The next person doesn't notice kids, doesn't care about kids, wouldn't put down a drink to rescue a drowning child. Are you really as bad as you're judging yourself?
We all have to be careful to not buy into the silly lies and spin that some say about us. I am 100% sure that you are not a bad person, that the world is better for having you in it, that you have impacted people in positive ways creating positive ripples in the world. Just because you can't see them and are hurting from the cold words of others doesn't mean those positive ripples aren't there.
I would say stop judging yourself unfairly. All people judge themselves unfairly, some unfaritly negatively, some unfairly positively. If you really feel in a spiral then consider meditation, there are some good techniques to inwardly reflect and find the inner beauty. But even without those you can just accept the words of those around you here who can tell you that you're a good person that is a postive member of this community.