The Boy Inside the Man

[AtosW]

For whatever reason, i just thought of this guy i knew about 15 years ago, when people still used and RPed on forums (and how much we've lost with that...). I think he was in his 20s or maybe early 30s, and not in any way attractive to me IRL obviously, but i had proposed some shota RPs and even if didn't seem to be his main thing, he just turned up like.... "Okay, i'll do it". And as those of us who know know, those tend to be the best.

He wasn't what some would call a literate or even very devoted RPer, but he just did the parts so damn well, like it was natural to him, which i prefer to what others think of as "good" RPers. Then like so many others, he just left the whole thing behind later. But for some reason, this particular one really got me thinking, what is it that make some grown-up men much more in touch with their childish side than others?

He certainly wasn't a "boyish" person otherwise, it wasn't his real personality, but he must have had some tendency inside him to allow him to become a younger person so convincingly. Somehow i think this is a key to MAPs ever becoming tolerated in public society. People are just taught to forget what it's like to actually be achild, and what others their age were like, and replace it with this fake, artificial idea of what children are. They act like there's this complete disconnect between childhood and adulthood that doesn't make sense to me, but i guess it does to them.

[FairBlueLove]

You make a good point. I'm wondering if this memory loss effect is really because "people are taught to forget", or if it is a natural effect. Maybe it is a mix of the two? Anyhow, I was just thinking the other day that it seems like most people really forget about how they felt, what were their thoughts when they were young (especially during and before puberty).

Reading a lot of comments even on the MAP community, from people which assert how a child feels or what he thinks, it seems more like they base their statements on something learned from books or psychologists, rather than referring to their own memories or memories of peers. And I realized like you that these artificial constructs of how a child feels/thinks might be pivotal to the lack of understanding towards both MAPs and AAMs.

Now, if this "memory loss" effect is all natural maybe there is nothing it can be done about it. But the reliance on fake constructs of those who forget about their childhood should be at least pointed out.

[Xuxa Nuit]

I can't remember anything but I sure remember how to play Barbies at a tea party with invisible tea.
I never matured and feel most comfortable around kids, I can be myself and they think I'm cool, that seldom happens much for me with adult people.
I smoked a lot of pot as a kid, maybe that is why?