Peer Support: Worrying about being a pedophile? Get to know the monster you are running away from!

[Jim Burton]

https://map-union.org/blog/peer-support ... cd-anxiety

Over the last ten years, there has been a lot of talk about "pedophilia" as a common theme for OCD sufferers. Some of it appears to be opportunistic, coming from professionals, some of it perpetuates stigma, yet some of it comes directly from sufferers. While using "Pedophilia OCD" as a diagnostic term is controversial for a variety of reasons, there is no doubt that many people suffer obsessive and compulsive thoughts about their sexuality, particularly in their youth.

In particular, it is unsurprising to find this anxiety often centers upon "pedophilic" feelings - perhaps the most stigmatized of all sexual inclinations at present, yet surprisingly common. Pedophilia can of course be "controlled" like any other sexuality - pedophiles who live among us attest to the fact they are not ticking time bombs - a stereotype that only exists to make some feel better about their own hateful obsessions. But while not a mental health issue in and of itself, pedophilia, or the fear thereof, might be the starting point for deeper mental traumas rooted in social stigma.

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And while Sexuality OCD sufferers may indeed be carriers of the social stigma and guilt that MAPs are trying to escape, it is incumbent upon MAPs who have the strength to confront that stigma, to help others past it.

Ultimately, when we confront and erase this deadly stigma together, we help clear the air of the confusing, befuddling smog of misinformation. OCD sufferers might then learn that pedophilia needn't rule their lives, while actual pedophiles and MAPs might discover it isn't so much of a curse after all!

[Learning to undeny]

Good article. It is worth mentioning that, when and where homosexuality is seen as a negative thing, there are people with OCD worried about being homosexual. But I think this presentation of OCD has seen a decline as LGBT has advanced.

I think I read that stigmatisation (for example, of pedophiles) does not create the OCD, it only steers it towards a specific theme. But learning that pedophiles are not monsters would surely help people with this presentation.

[nicholas_weeks]

A nice article. About the linked article of the Nightingale Hospital in London,
I remember that during my teenagehood - time where i discover myself as a map - I was to worried and paranoid about my real feelings to the point of self harm obsessively like some sort of POCD. I quit porn, started praying and taking anti-anxiety medication, but my mental health still wasn't good even with the medication. I remember one day, after crying a lot, I lay down to sleep and dreamed that I was naked with a little girl in bed. It wasn't clear if there was genital contact or intercourse, but we were both there in intimacy as if we were sleeping or letting ourselves fall into a deep sleep at the bottom of that white bed, and our bodies exchanged only that wild heat that resonates with the messy sheets after a night's sleep. There was no disturbance or paranoia, quite the contrary, only peace.


Another important point that needs to be made is:

A paedophile knows they want intimacy with a child. They then overcome their conscience (the super-ego in Freud’s terms) so they can act.

It's not completely wrong, but if we are going to follow the same psychoanalytic line that this article has used with dreams, there's no difference between what the pedophile feels from what the POCD patient feels. The desire it's the same. The POCD doesn't want to have sex with a child for x,y and z reasons, but he still sharing the same feelings with US.

[Learning to undeny]

An example of someone with pOCD who became an ally of anti-c MAPs:
https://thepword.net/unique-window
I think it fits here.

[Jim Burton]

Sure, that was the reason for writing the above article, and it is already cited.

[bnkywuv]

I noticed around 13-14 that I began to have nightmares and intrusive thoughts of minors sexually assaulting me. I remember the day I turned 18, all hell broke lose!

They became increasingly violent and disturbing on that day, and have only gotten worse the older I've grown. Adults and myself locked away in dungeons, torture chambers, or simply just someone's basement or attic. We're beaten, tortured, locked up, starved, tied up, raped, filmed, left to die, and forced to worship the minors who imprisoned us or face ever increasingly cruel punishment...much of the same things anti-MAPs accuse MAPs of doing to children in fact! I wake up crying nearly every time.

However, a recent death penalty bill signed into law has made them so disturbing that I'm even contemplating fleeing my area of residence. Cannabis is the only thing that has worked effectively, and CBD shops have shut down due to the police and law enforcement threatening to ban even hemp deprived products, even plain CBD which has been legal for around 6 to 7 years.

If AoC was lower I wouldn't have such disturbing intrusive thoughts and nightmares. I've even contemplated self termination as a cure. But I think moving to a more accepting place would be the better option of the 2!