James wrote: Wed Dec 31, 2025 9:35 pm
Wait, you mean you weren't irrevocably TRAUMATIZED by your MOLESTATION to which you COULD NOT HAVE CONSENTED by an OLDER MAN?
Dear God man, how can this be?!?!?
He will always be special to me because of that time we had together. Actually it was hard seeing him so old now, still the same person but I did leave feeling worried for him at his age. I hope I gave him some closure at least plus I enjoyed being around him again even though now only as friends.
Certainly not traumatised. I struggled a bit with life when younger. I had a wonderful family and home but I struggled to fit in at school I think. I would try too hard to be cool, to be popular, but it never felt natural to me. I was bullied at times and while I did try at school, I wasn't driven as much as I wish I had been. I think trying to fit in and be popular was more important than schooling.
But he was a rock for me in many ways. I could talk to him about bullying and get good advice. He would talk to me about all kinds of problems I had. He'd help me to work out how to study better, how to deal with people better, how to not get so stressed about things. He was a good friend as well as a lover. The physical aspects just gave me something fun to look forward to, escapism and it felt good to be with him in that way. Actually I would pursue that more from him than the other way around, I could be a little demanding in that department but he helped me to deal with my raging hormones and wants. Honestly, without him I think I'd have gone off the rails, he was someone I admired and respected who could guide me to do better and it's that which really helped me to keep control of my life and to go on to be confident and reasonably successful in life.
Keep every stone they throw at you. You've got castles to build.
“Hope is not something you find; it’s something you create.” – Cassian Andor
“Our fight is for those who came before us, and for those still to come.” – Mon Mothma
