Suicide and loneliness

[mrlolicon93]

Have you ever felt lonely and depressed or wanted to kill yourself because of your attraction?

This is something i experience often and not just because of my pedophilia but also, because i am a mentally ill loser and i know i don't have a place in society and that my future is suicide.

I imagine many other maps feel the same way because we are basically the most hated group of people ever and are made outcast by society.

[BLueRibbon]

Hi, I was just checking the forum now for moderation purposes, and will get back to replying to some other threads later.

But I want to make sure you're OK.

Feel free to continue discussing your feelings here, or in the Member Support forum.

You could also take a look at B4U-Act's more specialized offerings.

You're also welcome to send me a PM if you don't want to go into detail on the public forum.

[mrlolicon93]

Hi, I was just checking the forum now for moderation purposes, and will get back to replying to some other threads later.

But I want to make sure you're OK.

Feel free to continue discussing your feelings here, or in the Member Support forum.

You could also take a look at B4U-Act's more specialized offerings.

You're also welcome to send me a PM if you don't want to go into detail on the public forum.

Thanks and tbh no i am not doing okay.

[NotTrueToMyself]

Hi, I was just checking the forum now for moderation purposes, and will get back to replying to some other threads later.

But I want to make sure you're OK.

Feel free to continue discussing your feelings here, or in the Member Support forum.

You could also take a look at B4U-Act's more specialized offerings.

You're also welcome to send me a PM if you don't want to go into detail on the public forum.

Thanks and tbh no i am not doing okay.

Read my intro and I can completely understand you. I once considered suicide when I was in my teens due to have been subject to a rape. Since then and as I have had to come to grips with being a MAP, I had a child. He is now 23. I have 3 more (yes I’m non-exclusive but I still have a lot of struggles). I won’t say I haven’t considered suicide multiple times but I decided I would not put that burden on my children. The falacy of suicide is that it stops our pain…it doesn’t. It just transfers it to those that love us and forces them to live with it.

That being said, I can’t tell you the number of times I went to bed at night hoping, praying and begging to not wake up the next morning.

My key was finding people that I love more than I suffer from my pain.

[BLueRibbon]

If anyone here is considering suicide, or otherwise needs mental health support, please feel welcome to PM me or send an e-mail to b.ribbon@map-union.org.

[MAP romance God]

Yes, I've been very close to it. I had the plan, the means and the location down already.

Thankfully I ended up not doing it.

One thing I can tell you in my humble experience is that, although we try to anticipate the future based on what happened in the past, and understandably so, the truth is, no one knows exactly what the future holds. Tables can turn rather quickly, our worldviews, circumstances and especially emotions can change very fast and sometimes one person taking one action is all that's needed for your life to change dramatically. So try to bear it in mind before reaching a definite conclusion that there's nothing to live for anymore (: