Suicide

[Kylelomaz]

Hello all I was just wondering has anyone known anyone personally who was a map and has committed suicide.
Or has committed suicide but didn’t reveal themselves to anyone.
Also has anyone ever suspected that the people who they knew have committed suicide that they may have been a map.
Ever since I’ve read on some of the websites that there have been maps that have killed themselves .
I always think like when hear on internet news of people out there who offed themselves there’s always that thought of was he a map .
Has ever felt like that anyway please let me I am very interested in your response.

[Fragment]

https://www.map-union.org/blog/mu-analy ... lth-crisis

I wrote about it here.

[MAP romance God]

https://www.map-union.org/blog/mu-analy ... lth-crisis

I wrote about it here.

Damn, those stories were heart-wrenching. I'm glad I don't live in the US, the state of things concerning MAPs there has reached absolutely insane levels that have long surpassed anything that could be remotely considered a reasonable, healthy concern for the safety of minors.

I must admit I'm not that focused on trying to change society, culture or people as I've been in the past; still, I'm sure such excellent posts full to the brim with great points and real-life examples of actual people who got destroyed over the most innocuous things will make an impact on a fair share of people. If nothing else, people like you will be viewed as visionaries when our societies manage to shake off this lunatic witch hunt towards anything that can be remotely considered "pedo".

But, seriously, you're such an amazing writer. I even learned a couple of new works for my English Anki deck (:

[Xuxa Nuit]

I have known many MAPs fallen to suicide, including teenagers, and personally it's devastated my entire life and makes me want to join them sometimes.
The only thing that keeps me going is being right here, right now. I never want to see this happen to another human being.
https://www.mydeathspace.com/article/20 ... depression

[Kylelomaz]

https://www.map-union.org/blog/mu-analy ... lth-crisis

I wrote about it here.

Damn, those stories were heart-wrenching. I'm glad I don't live in the US, the state of things concerning MAPs there has reached absolutely insane levels that have long surpassed anything that could be remotely considered a reasonable, healthy concern for the safety of minors.

I must admit I'm not that focused on trying to change society, culture or people as I've been in the past; still, I'm sure such excellent posts full to the brim with great points and real-life examples of actual people who got destroyed over the most innocuous things will make an impact on a fair share of people. If nothing else, people like you will be viewed as visionaries when our societies manage to shake off this lunatic witch hunt towards anything that can be remotely considered "pedo".

But, seriously, you're such an amazing writer. I even learned a couple of new works for my English Anki deck (:

Hi romance god can I ask what country do you live in?

[Xuxa Nuit]

Girl I was enamored with, I woke up one day to find she was gone. Then when I found out how she left us, and why, god the pain was unbearable to me. Changed the direction of my entire life.
I couldn't help but think that I was responsible somehow, as if I could've saved her life, or at least bought her some time.

When someone around you commits suicide, it's kinda your fault isn't it? I mean aren't human beings supposed to kinda care about each other, even if they are sexually dysfunctional?

I often wonder, probably a lot of people seriously enjoy when MAPs off themselves.
They giggle about.

[Kylelomaz]

Girl I was enamored with, I woke up one day to find she was gone. Then when I found out how she left us, and why, god the pain was unbearable to me. Changed the direction of my entire life.
I couldn't help but think that I was responsible somehow, as if I could've saved her life, or at least bought her some time.

When someone around you commits suicide, it's kinda your fault isn't it? I mean aren't human beings supposed to kinda care about each other, even if they are sexually dysfunctional?

I often wonder, probably a lot of people seriously enjoy when MAPs off themselves.
They giggle about.

Hi xuxa nuit was she a map very to hear about that may she rest in peace.

[Xuxa Nuit]

Hi xuxa nuit was she a map very to hear about that may she rest in peace.

She was MAP who cared about people, other MAPs, little girls, older guys. Open minded and wild & smart, unique, I've never met another like her before or since. She was betrayed by those she so foolishly thought she could trust. Once her classmates & parents discovered she'd felt some tendencies orientating sexually toward girls age 8+, pushed her over the edge. The #1 main reason I've been so deeply involved in the CL/MAP/Radfem community this past 20 years. I understood her a kindred spirit, the two of us both capable of loving everybody, anyone, free from any sense of restriction or limit or conditions. Like an innocent child herself punished for being so loving, not fair she never hurt anyone. Sure she made some people very uncomfortable with her love, especially her family. She felt alone like nobody liked her, because it's true she was alone and disliked, just like me too so am I. I liked her though, loved her, she just wasn't into me that way. I would've married her had she wanted me too.
Everyday I hope a girl who is just like her walks through the door here at Mu, so maybe we can help save her, but there really are no girls like her, very few, one in a million. It's been almost 20 years and my eyes still blur over every time I think about her life.
I'm abnormal. She didn't effect anyone else like she did me, I just feel it's my duty to keep her spirit alive long as I shall live.
I do believe she is at peace, god knows I'll always love her, and so does she.
All of this happened so long ago, I am too old to be of much use now. I can only pray that some young people, maybe like you kyle, hear my tale & try to continue this legacy of mine, this odyssey to encourage & respect honesty in girls, to protect them from such madness to prevent such senseless tragedy. The way I see, if you devote your entire life to trying to spare a girl from suicidal misery all to no avail, without any success well at least you know you tried for something of a noble cause, and if by your efforts happen to save just one person, was it worth it?
Sounds worth it to me cuz I'm straight up pure GirlLover, passionate in my Love for Girls. I support Girls Rights and wrongs.

[Xuxa Nuit]

https://www.map-union.org/blog/mu-analy ... lth-crisis
I wrote about it here.

I have another story I'd like to add here. My commentary merely to backup Fragment- (Mu analysis of MAP mental health crisis) I'm living proof this stuff is real and if you need any help then it is RIGHT HERE for you. You'll be okay, cry out loud if you need help, someone will hear you RIGHT NOW, maybe a Christian if you're lucky!
The lonely death: Charlie's story
I feel Charlie is a kindred spirit. I understand Charlie, and known 2-3 people of similar character.
I too collect Hello Kitty & My Little Pony, a grown man with a toy chest in his room, stacks of 'Discovery Girl' Magazines and "Child" on the bookshelf. After a quick passing glance into my bedroom people have often asked me, "do you have kids?" Depending whether a friend or foe, sometimes I'll giggle "no, I just like kooky stuff, soothes the savage beast in me, comforts me being surrounded in wholesomeness." It's important philosophy to me trying to keep Child-at-Heart. Foes or narrowminded strangers I will lie to them saying, "yes, my young daughter lived here when I first moved in, just never got around to storing her things she left behind." These excuses usually work fine, but not always.
It's wonderful once in awhile when a child is brought to visit me, they absolutely adore my bedroom!
Once in awhile a typical type stranger, or dirty-minded so-called Fren, finding their way to my room triggers the knee-jerk reaction to conclude whoa XN is a child molester obviously! More than one occasion concerned Frens have tipped off local law enforcement suspecting I may be a dangerous predator, enticing the cops to pay me an unexpected knock & talk to question me on it. They can do that!
Living like this for years built me a reputation, friends who know me know the truth, but dirty minded strangers incapable of understanding have caused me some trouble, undue shame & guilt, to be sad & worry.

Then I finally found this amazing Christian who took me under his wing so I felt supported & secure, able to feel comfortable in my own skin, with sufficient self-confidence to cherish the life of my Child-at-Heart, the most important treasure to carry along your way... Matthew 18:3
This man was seriously involved with the AZOV cases, working night & day to solve problems for the defendants. My hero & mentor so selfless with unconditional love, wanting to be more like the guy I tried my best to imitate him, to help assist with his work on the AZOV cases, I learned so much from him, inspired me to write this here for Mu. Always there in the back of my mind, he touched my soul and will live in my heart forever now. World needs more people like that, Christian MAP respecters.
That's all I wanted to say.