Hello everyone

[ZeroXJoker]

Hello all. I just learned about this place today over from A MAP in Love blog and as a fellow MAP I thought about joining. You can call me ZeroJoker I guess I would say I that I had my first feelings I was a MAP probably when I was 18 or so. Thinking more on it I would say I really started forming my opinions on certain topics such as AMSC when I was 16 or 17. There were two events that I guess I would say started shaping those opinion. First was this rumor that I heard in high school in the early 2000's that this girl in the same school district I went to like maybe 10 or 11 wrote this note to this boy who she liked about what she wanted him to do with her sexually. Obviously it was two minors and I remember how grossed out my classmates were about it but I didn't see anything wrong it. I think that was because I had my first sexual experience at a young age like 9 or 10 with a friend at the time who like 12 or 13 or so at the time. Now I have no way of knowing if this was true or not since it was just a rumor so I'm learning on maybe not but who knows.

The second one and now thinking about it should have been my first sign of what I realized I should have known at the time was that a classmates brother got arrested for having sex with a 13 year old girl as a 19 year old. I still remember reading about it in the papers and the judge who sentenced him said something along the lines of "have sex with people your own age." Again my classmates said how gross it was but I saw nothing wrong with it myself but I kept my opinions to myself on the matter.

I guess where I really started to notice what I was when I was 18 and I worked at my first job at a grocery store. I often saw young girls like middle school students and thought how cute they were and how I wouldn't mind having them for myself. Then when I started working at an office job at 20 I kind of didn't think about it all that much figuring well I was past that. So probably when I was 25 things started coming to the surface again for me once I discovered lolicon and shotacon hentai doujinshi and that was when I slowly over the course of 2 years came to accept that I was a MAP.

Now for the record while I use the lolicon and shotacon stuff for masturbation materials along with legal adult materials as I also have attractions to adults my secondary attraction is to minors and I consider myself bisexual. As I turn 40 next year I never really thought about joining a MAP community but as I will never be out as a MAP in public this is the best I can do and keep myself as anonymous individual.

[BLueRibbon]

Nice to meet you!

There are a lot of men with a secondary attraction to minors. Most repress it. It's great to see you accept and embrace it.