Wow, wow, wow.. what a riveting and fascinating discussion. I just listened to the whole thing and hung and every word. I think you held your own very well.
You were articulate, measured and able to navigate some pretty tough questions that we all must confront. And really highlights the dilemma of being a MAP.
First, let me say that I was aware of MrGirl before this interview. And I've gone down a couple rabbit holes on him in the past.
My best guess is that he is, at the very least, someone who has struggled with his attractions to minors and/or had AMSC when he was a kid/teen.
Are you aware of the "Cuties" video that he made? .. where basically he posted a review of the Netflix movie cuties. And admitted that the reason it's so controversial is that it makes the viewer feel sexual attraction toward these girls. To which he includes himself.
I looked up the YouTube video so I could get his quote right.. and I'm going to provide the link.
https://youtu.be/iERNdjDlqcE?si=_VZZeFk4kQN0mwMd
In the first two minutes of his review he acknowledges that the movie attempts to make you sexually aroused by these 11 yr old girls.. and for him, he admits that it succeeded.
He got a bunch of backlash for that review. And there's been a few other places that he's discussed these topics, also on Destiny's channel (the blue haired twitch streamer)
Anyways, all of this is to say that I think one of the reasons this was such a poignant interview with you is because I think he gets it .. but is also playing the role of devil's advocate. And asking the really tough questions that we've all have to wrestle with.
He brought up some good points about our potential partners aging out of our attraction range. And I think you did a great job acknowledging that and being honest about how those potential "utopian" situations could work.
I disagree with his one dimensional assessment that it's all about the power dynamic and we just like preying on vulnerable boys and girls.
i also disagree with equating AMSC to murder.. and it's like saying "well, I only murder once in awhile.. but I do all these other great things"
I understand exactly where you're thought process is in how you view and respect the boys you're interested in. I can tell you have a genuine empathy for them and a desire to be a positive influence in their lives. And while there is a sexual component to the way you feel, it doesn't come from a place of wanting to harm or exploit. I feel the EXACT same way!
I don't get off on seeing kids, or anyone for that matter, in pain. It's the exact opposite of that.
Because we know there are those out there that give us a bad name. But those aren't the true MAPS. Those are the guys that watch CP, but are also into animals, torture videos and these vile extreme type fetishes.
Anyways, I've probably gone on enough.
But I just want to commend you on being so well spoken under some pretty tough questioning. I really, really enjoy listening to you. You have a great vocabulary, tone and delivery.
I'll be looking forward to hearing more from you!
Haha I also got tripped up for a minute when you said it happened in 2003.. I was thinking damn I thought the US court system was slow.. 20 years is a long time to be dealing with a case

Anyways, thank you so much for your courage and being such a brave and articulate voice for us. Keep fighting the good fight!


