My introduction

[Cheshire]

My username is well, Cheshire and I am in my late teens and considered a adult and male, I suppose I am pansexual and I've been "something" for a long time, I could say MAP but I am really unsure and without making this too long I've find it hard to be attracted much to humans in general compared to those considered fictional but when I do find attraction it's typically those between 8 and 15, at least I think so and when I was considered 15 my attraction laid mostly with those between 8 and 13 and I cannot say I consider myself human, I don't really know what I am or who I am.

I used to want to be a Vtuber when I was between 14 and 17 and I'm a failed writer amongst many more things that would take a long time to mention and I like books, especially Alice's adventures in wonderland being my favorite and I play video games very often.

I suppose I haven't had many I've considered a friend since I was 10 and 11 and I am fairly isolated, prefer not to really interact with most people even online and I have lurked on forums for almost a month before creating this account and I guess my AOA is usually between 8 and 15, not that I find no one above that attractive but I am a lot more picky and turned off mostly emotionally and maybe slightly physically but just barely.

[BLueRibbon]

Welcome!

If you're in your late teens and attracted to 8-15 year olds, you are probably a MAP. I joined the online MAP community while I was in my teens, too.

I'd say it's too early to discount yourself as a failed writer. Keep at it!

If you can, interacting with people of any age/orientation offline might be a good idea to help keep yourself grounded, but I appreciate that may be much easier said than done.

[Cheshire]

It's not that I don't interact with others ever but I tend to keep it to a minimum and I don't get out often and I don'thave that desire much, not anymore at least and in short the world just feels really eldritch in a way.

But thanks and I'll keep the rules in mind.