MAP Forum

I’d just like to point out one thing: if I’m not mistaken, hypersexuality, like many other issues, has to do with developing social, personal, relationship, or work-related problems because of a persistent sexual desire. It’s not really about how often someone masturbates.

In my case anyway—though I wouldn’t exactly call myself a MAP (or at least, I guess it depends on others whether they’d consider me one or not; I just like shota imagery)—there are weeks when I masturbate once every three days, and there are days when I do it six times a day. It depends on how I want to spend my time—whether I feel like reading some erotic stories, browsing Pixiv, or playing video games.

But on a typical day, I masturbate twice, especially lately since I’ve been really into reading.

Maybe. I get up each morning with a hard on that must be dealt with, I dream a lot about girls, especially before waking up. The urge recurs through out the day, and always before going to bed. Sigh I gotta get myself a loli looking GF

I truly, truly hate the feeling of sexual numbness that I have almost all the time so much. I can't describe it. It's not neutral, it's not just a lack of interest or my need for sex being satiated where I'm left feeling peaceful and affectionate and still interested in basic sensual contact (e.g. cuddling or kissing), it's a 'positive' feeling in itself. It's this deep boredom with sex (nude attractive women mean absolutely nothing to me) where it can't be pleasurable but it's frustrating because I want it to be. Again, it's hard to explain. I've noticed that it's at its strongest when I masturbate after abstaining for 36 through 71 hours. I think it correlates with my inability to enjoy music and various sensory experiences, and this general deep boredom with life (although that's an issue with 36 + hours abstinence in general, even after 72 hours). It is so undesirable and nasty, I want to be free from it.

To escape low energy, sexual numbness, really bad moods, etc. I experimented with masturbating after 72 hours abstinence a few weeks ago. My actual masturbation session itself was fine (in terms of being erotic, my e.d is always demoralizing) but my back pain was worse (it seems to have worsened lately, I fear it might take 2+ years for me to recover from masturbating after 72 hours abstinence as it did to recover from masturbating just once after only 47 hours abstinence. I know that sounds ridiculous and I'm omitting some things in general but trust me) and I had various issues, I think. I had really bad depression when I increased my frequency again (I assumed it would take 16 days for my dopamine levels to readjust so it might have been a lingering effect of my after-72-hours- abstinence masturbation session. The last time I tried the 72-83 frequency, in '24 and '23, I had some health issues that mirrored problems with the 47-71 frequency, depression, deep misanthropy, worsened e.d, brain fog, etc. This last time my e.d wasn't any worse but traditionally it's always been worse after 47 hours abstinence. I've had teeth/gum issues lately; weird, unnerving and sometimes very painful sensations that make it hard to eat and rinsing out my mouth is hell because of the sensitivity, I don't know what the cause of this is). To kill my sexual numbness/anhedonia/boredom with life I want to do 24-35 hours abstinence only but that would come with various problems (like emotional over-sensitivity, it will make me even more unattractive, it might add more fat to my stomach and ass, it might cause more lifelong inflamed bony skin bumps and almost certainly more body/face acne; I've had a lot of face acne lately and some scars I don't think will ever fade or at least one big awkward one near my right brow, or some kind of lifelong skin issue to make my body dysphoria even worse, etc.).

My theory on why it's worst after 36-71 hours is that sexual stimulation affects the brain like a drug and with many drugs withdrawal symptoms peak after 48 hours because that's how long it takes for the drug's direct influence to completely wane. After that, the body has to learn to adapt without it.

This has been the worst year of my life and things are only going to get more and more intolerable. If I can't have the peace of death, I just wish I was 34 again, or at least 38 without the back/muscle problems and erectile dysfunction.