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Learning to undeny wrote: Wed Sep 02, 2026 6:26 pm How do you feel about that change?

At first it didnt bother me, i developed a preference for women with small breasts (A or B cup) and small butts and i also feel attracted to preteen girls. Up until a year ago, I actually thought my preferences were normal and I wasnt sexually deviant, but then I realized that most men seem to have a preference for women with big breasts and butts, and I dont feel attracted to women like that, at least not anymore.

It honestly makes me distressed because I cant get aroused looking at the majority of adult women and I feel like I cant maintain a relationship with one because I won't feel attracted to her that much. I haven't been in a relationship before either.

I've also seen a lot of people make death threats towards men who are attracted to women with small breasts or men attracted to children and its made me feel insecure about my own preferences.

pedo233 wrote: Wed Sep 02, 2026 8:05 pm

OnionPetal wrote: Wed Sep 02, 2026 5:03 pm If pr0n can change someone's orientation, then could it make a child-lover attracted to adults? I don't think so.

If you find any evidence of it, let me know. But I have yet to see a single peer-reviewed study that concludes that a child-lover's orientation was changed by watching adult pr0n.

This is the closest i can find: https://sci-hub.su/10.1111/jsm.12488

The only thing this limited study shows is that convicted sex offenders can have some variability in PPT response. Based on what is known about convicted sex offenders, that should come as no surprise.

Most of the study sample had been charged or convicted at least once for a sexual offense against a child (79%).

These are not self-identified child-lovers. These are situational offenders who have been 'diagnosed' with paedophilic disorder. (Studies show a clear delineation between the tendencies of these two populations.) Hardly a representative sample of MAPs.

And according to their own numbers (see Table 3), the majority of sample subjects (NCs) actually had a mean increase in paedophilic interest.

The researchers acknowledge that PPT response can be faked, and the audio-only stimuli used in this study is not a comprehensive test of someone's sexual interest. 'Sexual interest' is not the same as sexual orientation, but the study authors do not acknowledge paedophilia as anything other than a 'disorder' (a bias likely stemming from their heavy dealings with convicted sex offenders). Their 'speculation' to this end is completely at odds with the bulk of contemporary pulblished mental health research on MAPs.

If the results were replicated with self-identified child-lovers who did not deny their attraction to children (and who had not been in a psychiatric institution for disordered convicts), then I would have more interest. But this is yet another study primarily using unstable, criminally convicted participants, and it's really not shocking to see some instability in sexual interest among that sample population.

pedo233 wrote: Wed Sep 02, 2026 8:16 pm I've also seen a lot of people make death threats towards men who are attracted to women with small breasts or men attracted to children and its made me feel insecure about my own preferences.

Yes, they wanted to make you feel that way.

OnionPetal wrote: Wed Sep 02, 2026 10:15 pm

pedo233 wrote: Wed Sep 02, 2026 8:05 pm

OnionPetal wrote: Wed Sep 02, 2026 5:03 pm If pr0n can change someone's orientation, then could it make a child-lover attracted to adults? I don't think so.

If you find any evidence of it, let me know. But I have yet to see a single peer-reviewed study that concludes that a child-lover's orientation was changed by watching adult pr0n.

This is the closest i can find: https://sci-hub.su/10.1111/jsm.12488

The only thing this limited study shows is that convicted sex offenders can have some variability in PPT response. Based on what is known about convicted sex offenders, that should come as no surprise.

Most of the study sample had been charged or convicted at least once for a sexual offense against a child (79%).

These are not self-identified child-lovers. These are situational offenders who have been 'diagnosed' with paedophilic disorder. (Studies show a clear delineation between the tendencies of these two populations.) Hardly a representative sample of MAPs.

And according to their own numbers (see Table 3), the majority of sample subjects (NCs) actually had a mean increase in paedophilic interest.

The researchers acknowledge that PPT response can be faked, and the audio-only stimuli used in this study is not a comprehensive test of someone's sexual interest. 'Sexual interest' is not the same as sexual orientation, but the study authors do not acknowledge paedophilia as anything other than a 'disorder' (a bias likely stemming from their heavy dealings with convicted sex offenders). Their 'speculation' to this end is completely at odds with the bulk of contemporary pulblished mental health research on MAPs.

If the results were replicated with self-identified child-lovers who did not deny their attraction to children (and who had not been in a psychiatric institution for disordered convicts), then I would have more interest. But this is yet another study primarily using unstable, criminally convicted participants, and it's really not shocking to see some instability in sexual interest among that sample population.

pedo233 wrote: Wed Sep 02, 2026 8:16 pm I've also seen a lot of people make death threats towards men who are attracted to women with small breasts or men attracted to children and its made me feel insecure about my own preferences.

Yes, they wanted to make you feel that way.

Okay, well, i was wondering why i discovered that i have a preference for women with small breasts and preteen girls at a later age, this wasnt my preference before, i dont really remember feeling attracted to women that had small breasts or to children or fantasizing about them before i was 16. When I look at women that i was attracted to before i was 16, it just turns me off now.

The only indication was that I was sympathetic towards MAPs and pedophiles before i was 16, but i dont know if there's a correlation.

Ive seen some MAPs or pedophiles claim they discovered their attraction to minors or children quite late, some even later than me, so I was wondering why this happens.

In terms of porn I havent seen any examples of people in my situation (I dont think they would want to admit to it anyways) but I've read peoples first hand account of being straight but becoming addicted to gay porn, or gay people becoming addicted to straight / lesbian porn, are these stories fake?

pedo233 wrote: Wed Sep 02, 2026 10:27 pm In terms of porn I havent seen any examples of people in my situation (I dont think they would want to admit to it anyways) but I've read peoples first hand account of being straight but becoming addicted to gay porn, or gay people becoming addicted to straight / lesbian porn, are these stories fake?

Yes. I'm not an expert on this, but there are definitely reports of straight people getting into gay pr0n or needing to find more 'extreme' content to get off on, especially with reports of 'pr0n addiction'. But when these people have gotten their 'addiction' under control and stopped wanking so much all the time, then those unwanted 'extreme' or 'novel' interests usually tend to subside, and they generally return to their baseline. If you feel like you're wanking too much and struggle to control the habit, then try to resolve that first, and then see what happens.

Not saying it doesn't exist, but I have never heard a case of a straight guy who got 'addicted to gay pr0n', and then after resolving the 'addiction', he didn't like women anymore, and only wanted to date men from then on. And if there is such case, then wouldn't you think it likely that there was something within him that made him want to view gay pr0n instead of, say... midget pr0n? I'm guessing there may have been some repressed interest where, if the guy liked the gay pr0n more than the other types of pr0n, and now he's gay... Well, maybe that sounds like a preference.

As for you? I don't know, there are probably a lot of variables besides the media that you watched. But maybe there is some reason that you preferred seeing younger-looking women, rather than gerontophile pr0n. Besides, an attraction to small-breasted women is totally different from an attraction to children. They're nothing alike. Sometimes people's AoA (age of attraction) can change over time. I don't know what causes the change. Maybe hormone levels as you go through adolescence. Maybe negative experiences with adults. Perhaps you have a deep sensitivity towards young people. It could be anything. If you search for early hints to your attraction, you will likely find some. Didn't you ever find your eyes drawn to a cute young girl in a movie when you were a kid?

We could keep playing armchair psychologist, but then I'd have to start charging a fee . Like I said, the answer has to come from inside you.

OnionPetal wrote: Wed Sep 02, 2026 11:12 pm If you feel like you're wanking too much and struggle to control the habit, then try to resolve that first, and then see what happens.

I've tried but its difficult, I end up masturbating again in one or two days.

I was thinking of bringing this up to a therapist, telling them that i am trying to quit masturbating but i am unable to do it, do you think its a good idea or will they not do anything about it?

OnionPetal wrote: Wed Sep 02, 2026 11:12 pm As for you? I don't know, there are probably a lot of variables besides the media that you watched. But maybe there is some reason that you preferred seeing younger-looking women, rather than gerontophile pr0n.

There was one porn actress that got me into women with small breasts and butts, i remember she had a really pretty face, and i wasnt attracted to her body type that much at first but i became more and more attracted to her. There was a video of her oiled up and i mostly masturbated to this video of her, i think seeing her oiled up helped me be sexually aroused.

OnionPetal wrote: Wed Sep 02, 2026 11:12 pm Besides, an attraction to small-breasted women is totally different from an attraction to children. They're nothing alike.

I guess, but I think a man who has a sexual preference for women with small breasts is most likely also attracted to preteen girls, its that way in my case at least.

OnionPetal wrote: Wed Sep 02, 2026 11:12 pm If you search for early hints to your attraction, you will likely find some. Didn't you ever find your eyes drawn to a cute young girl in a movie when you were a kid?

I dont really remember feeling attracted to anything childlike before i was 16. I had crushes on girls my age in elementary and middle school but they weren't sexual in nature.