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While off board contact isn't prohibited, we do warn members to be very careful when engaging in it, especially with members who are newer to the community.

I'd also remind people that erotic fiction involving minors, while legal in some jurisdictions, counts as "abuse material" in others. As ridiculous as that is, know your local laws.

18andconfused wrote: Tue Apr 15, 2025 12:23 am would u be comfortable sharing numbers or social media through a private message and maybe we could share some writing? if not that’s totally okay, i guess i’m just interested : )

You're a bit too new here for me to share contact details at this point, but if you stick around and get to know me better (and vice-versa), I'd eventually be open to it. It's a matter of weeks, though, not of a few days. Also, I don't use social media. At all. I'm a ghost online. That's why I'm fairly comfortable sharing more personal details on this forum.

You're a bit too new here for me to share contact details at this point, but if you stick around and get to know me better (and vice-versa), I'd eventually be open to it. It's a matter of weeks, though, not of a few days. Also, I don't use social media. At all. I'm a ghost online. That's why I'm fairly comfortable sharing more personal details on this forum.

i understand that , no worries.

Oh dear... You need to use the tag without the slash first:
...then with the slash afterwards:
Fortunately, you can edit your posts.

For some reason, I ended up discussing some details of female sexuality in another thread. (Warning: let's keep the discussion technical and academic.)

oh okay, i didnt really understand that. sorry

18andconfused wrote: Wed Apr 16, 2025 2:09 pm oh okay, i didnt really understand that. sorry

It's alright hun, I'm assuming you've never used an old-fashioned forum with BBCode before.

Speaking of getting to know each other, what are your non-sexual hobbies? I notably like reading, writing (including poetry), music, cooking, video games (horror and puzzle games are my favourites), anime, and flower arrangement in the summer. I have an introverted, sensitive, and cerebral personality that's totally unlike my sexuality as a Dom—though I can also be quite intense in everyday life (and tender sexually).

With regard to your sexuality, when did you accept that you were a nepiophile/pedophile? Was it gradual or sudden? For me, the realization was gradual, but the acceptance was sudden, if that makes sense. I started to realize that I was only attracted to the youngest-looking girls as soon as I started looking at porn, at 10, then it became even clearer when I discovered lolicon at 12 and loved it far more than any other erotic material... but I was in denial about it, telling myself that it was because of my own age and I'd "grow out of it", and/or that I was a nijikon attracted to childlike 2D characters. I was effectively forced to accept the fact of my paedophilia (I didn't know the acronym MAP) at 15 when I fell in love with a 7-year-old distant cousin and desired her sexually more than I've ever desired any other girl except two. To this day, I can say that if I could choose—in some sci-fi scenario—a body of my choice for my romantic partner that she'd keep forever, it would be the tiny, slender, heavenly body of that specific girl at 7 or 8 years of age.