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I see many people here expressing that they have always been aware of their attraction. Personally, I spent most of my life in denial. This was largely due to being bullied at an early age for being gay, which led me to suppress all thoughts related to sexuality, including this attraction, until I was 22.

I wonder how many others here have also experienced a period of denial before coming to terms with their feelings.

Julia wrote: Wed Feb 19, 2025 7:48 pm I see many people here expressing that they have always been aware of their attraction. Personally, I spent most of my life in denial. This was largely due to being bullied at an early age for being gay, which led me to suppress all thoughts related to sexuality, including this attraction, until I was 22.

I wonder how many others here have also experienced a period of denial before coming to terms with their feelings.

I was sorta in denial around 15-17yo....that was also around the time when I pretended I was straight and a good church-going boy.

For me it was strange, because I had my attraction feelings since I got memory. So I grew knowing I was not attracted to Adults but I was not sure about minors, when I discovered my exact AOA, I was like "I can't believe I am attracted to them", I was surprised but it didn't took me by surprise so denial was not too deep..

That is why I think denial comes when you suddenly discover something one for many years had not a single thought about.

I was growing up, but then as I got older it started to get obvious I had no real attraction to anyone my age or older.

I have never been in denial or ever wondered why I feel this way for YOUNG BOYS. We are born certain way. We are born with A certain sexual orientation I believe. I was born A Pedophile I guess I can just handle it better then some. It doesn't run my life.

Denial since I was a early teenager, I was still a child in most peoples eyes. I won't give specifics of how long it's been since then, but it's been a while. However, I have accepted my attractions as part of me in recent months and no longer deny them.

A lot of antis don't like to consider the fact us MAPs often realize our attractions when we ourselves are still minors.

Yes! I was in denial through my twenties even as I enjoyed reading erotic fiction that featured children. I even denied myself that pleasure quite often, and completely avoided loli comics and hentai

It wasn't until I fell completely in love with a teenage girl that I started confronting this truth about myself