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If you don't have a parent that knows you're a MAP and is supportive, you can borrow mine.

Great interview. Your mum sounds very supportive indeed. My own mum eventually accepted me, although it took nearly a decade (from age 13 to 21/22). Having an autopedophilic adult girlfriend was the key to changing her mind, as it gave her a female perspective that was completely opposite to her own.

I'm not sure I understood (I can't find the relevant part again), but you had a get-together with former students after your arrest?!

My only (very minor) criticism is that I'm tired of hearing some MAPs give the example of sadists and biastophiles as people for whom it's supposedly impossible to satisfy their desires ethically. I'm somewhat of a sadist and biastophile, I've met plenty of other biastophiles and sadists... I've yet to meet a single one who couldn't be fully satisfied with consensual "rape" role play (for biastophilia) and consensual sadomasochism with a willing masochistic partner (for sadism).

I have a straight teleiophile friend that is still a virgin in his 40s because he is only turned on by rape. I very much had him in mind.

I'm not sure I understood (I can't find the relevant part again), but you had a get-together with former students after your arrest?!

I talk about this in more detail in a (yet to be released) podcast. But yeah, a group of 6 boys had been begging me since last October to catch up. They aren't related to my case, but obviously meeting them is bad optics. But after my suicidal period in early February I just didn't care. I wanted to meet them before I die.

Funnily, meeting them made me feel myself again so strongly that it also eliminated most of my suicidality and made me feel that even if I go to prison, that somehow I'll manage it.

It was the best stupid decision that I've ever made.

Fragment wrote: Sun Apr 06, 2025 9:19 am I have a straight teleiophile friend that is still a virgin in his 40s because he is only turned on by rape. I very much had him in mind.

That poor dude should try finding a compatible partner in the BDSM community. Some of my most hardcore sex sessions with one ex-girlfriend in particular were so convincing that an unknowing onlooker would doubtless have mistaken them for the real deal. We were so intent on making it as intense and realistic as possible that we decided to forego a safe word, an extraordinarily controversial decision even within the BDSM community which puts what we did firmly in the category of edgeplay. (That former partner of mine once told me "I think I was raped", and described what happened at a party months earlier. I could barely believe that she saw any ambiguity in it... except for the fact that she enjoyed it. But it was most definitely rape in the most traditional sense. So, yeah, her autobiastophilia was rather extreme.)

Fragment wrote: Sun Apr 06, 2025 9:19 am I talk about this in more detail in a (yet to be released) podcast. But yeah, a group of 6 boys had been begging me since last October to catch up. They aren't related to my case, but obviously meeting them is bad optics. But after my suicidal period in early February I just didn't care. I wanted to meet them before I die.

Funnily, meeting them made me feel myself again so strongly that it also eliminated most of my suicidality and made me feel that even if I go to prison, that somehow I'll manage it.

It was the best stupid decision that I've ever made.

That's nice to hear.
I've got many questions, but I'll wait for that other podcast.