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I can't stop thinking of all the moments where I actually gave a damn and how they've been reinterpreted through the lens of grooming. Like nothing I did was ever real or for its own sake, it was merely instrumental. Every moment of care was a way of satisfying my lust for power, manipulation merely to satisfy my own deviant sexual desires.

When my students qualified for a national tournament and I took them to major theme park, it wasn’t because they did a great job and deserved a reward. Apparently it was because I wanted control. Power. To make them feel indebted to me so I could do what I wanted to them later.

When two of my students got into a fight, and one of them started crying once the adrenaline wore off, hugging into me, the fact that I didn’t push him away isn't because I wanted to be a rock for him, not because I thought he was fragile in that moment. No. It must’ve been my predatory need to break down physical boundaries so he'd be an easier mark later.

When a kid forgot to submit his allergy form before school camp and got served a plate with food he couldn’t eat half of, and I gave him some of mine, it wasn’t because I cared and wanted him to have something to eat while everyone else was eating. Of course, it was something darker. Everything I ever did had a hidden motive. I had a grooming tactic ready for every potential victim.

When a boy was taking the entrance exam to get into the school and had a panic attack during the first subject. I just smiled and told him, “As long as you calm down and focus on the other subjects, you still have a chance.” He got in. After, he told me that my words in that moment helped him get through. What masterful planning, I had him targeted, ready to victimize long before he even became my student.

This just in. Is being human grooming? Watch out for early warning signs of exploitation: having empathy toward children and being comfortable around them. Experts say emotional distance and being self-focused may be the key for adult to maintain healthy boundaries with children.

The legal system is pretty awful. I remember from family members going through divorces. I know it's not the same, though.

History is full of societies interpreting everything a victimised group as corrupt and evil. The Nazi's did it to the Jews, Rome did it to the Christians (cannibals that drink human blood in dark ceremonies), black slaves were only capable of acts of barbarism. It's a sickness in people that drives them to do this and it's often the most "enlightened" that drives it. Once the victims themselves, it was the wisdom of Christian leaders that condemned reclusive widowed women to be witches and anyone who questionned the church as the enemies of God.

Today it's the maps. Same story, same pattern, same techniques. If it wasn't us it would be somebody else. I don't get upset about it, in time it'll be somebody elses turn. It's just the insanity of human nature and the twisted societies they build along with the stories they invent and tell themselves to justify the terrible acts they commit against their fellow man.