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Last night I had a dream where Bart Simpson's mother was nagging at him over affiliating himself with Pedophiles. It scared me because I remember reading somewhere that dreams are your mind unlocked with your true feelings. It's basically your subconscience trying to communicate with you. I'm going to be honest. For about 5 months before January I was engulfed in the world of pedophilia because I wanted to understand myself. I was watching movies and documentaries about pedophilia, constantly listening to pro-contact and no-contact podcasts about the topic. I was constantly talking to this friend online who is PC. I was on Newgon all the time. I was constantly on this forum either commenting or posting stuff. According to the forum I currently have 48 posts. I was checking for comments on my posts at least 30 times a day. That stuff was my whole universe. Then in January I moved to Florida. After moving I stayed as far away from Pedophilia as much as I possibly could. For those few months I wanted a fresh start and going back into that water just made me think about my past. When I was doxxed. Now that I'm back into this world it's weird. I don't know what that dream was trying to tell me but it has to mean something. Back in October I thought about making a podcast and just being blunt about my identity. I'm not the best at computers so I knew I'd be doxxed sooner than later. I don't know what the Universe is trying to tell me what to do.

Whatever you do, please don't make any reckless decisions.

Florida is probably one of the worst places on the entire planet to be a pedophile.

Be careful and stay safe. But do what you can to find a life of meaning and value within those boundaries.

The dream might mean you're feeling overexposed. The Simpsons have been a normal part of mainstream culture for several decades, while pedophilia is something abnormal, secret, dangerous. The juxtaposition of a mundane scene of Marge talking to Bart, with the topic being pedophilia probably felt uncanny. It's something familiar combined with something that you try to hide. Kind of like why David Lynch's Blue Velvet feels unsettling. You might be disturbed by the sense that the secret of being a pedophile has become linked to your everyday life, since it makes the seemingly normal feel abnormal.