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I wasnt, I looked cute in some photos but overall, nah

Yes. Twink death is real.

I think I had a good-looking face and body. I got the face shape I prefer in children. I'd totes "bad touch" kid me.

Also I've shown my childhood photo to some pedos and they say I look cute. Some had a very positive reaction he he.
I know one in particular who thinks I was a "sexy kid", "10/10" lol.

Honestly I would love to look 10 years old again. I love my prepubescent face and body but I don't want to be too short. I still want to be able to comfortably live in this average height adult centered world and fit into my cherished clothes.

PorcelainLark wrote: Tue May 20, 2025 9:05 pm Yes. Twink death is real.

Male puberty is the most tragic thing in the universe.

I wasn’t ugly. Definitely on the “cuter” side, I think.

Lots of bad haircuts though. And bad teeth.

I think I would have been considered cute as a baby and child. In my preteens I think I went through an awkward mushroom head phase (I would comb my hair backward, it was a little oddly shaped when long. I also had a rat tail until I was 11) and would only wear sweat pants. At probably 12 I started getting positive attention from girls. Looking back (i.e. at photos from my early teens) I don't really understand why, but part of it might be that I wasn't very photogenic. I was completely 'unself-concious' about my appearance until the 10th grade, prior to then whenever some girls showed an interest or people said I was handsome (I don't want to make it out as if it was all the time or something) it went over my head, I didn't really think anything of it.

I became a little vain in the 10th grade ('vain' as in I liked my appearance, I liked attracting female attention, not just 'vain' as in 'preoccupied' with my appearance which I think body dysphoria implies in some capacity), until toward the end of the year when I was really bothered by my acne, sometimes my hair would be messy and my face sweaty, and my lips were shockingly chapped; as if I had a medical condition (from trying to be like LL Cool J, I'm sure). I remember joking with my friend that I was 'USB' (ugly skinny broke). I think I hit a temporary wall in/by the 11th grade (and as early as 16 I remember noticing that my pores were bigger, but that's not what I'm talking about). After that I went back and forth (in terms of being extremely unattractive, neutral or relatively attractive) on different days/in different eras throughout my life (I won't mention my body. Bumps on my chest that I've by now gotten rid of at 16 because my dumb ass felt the need to cover my chest in oil, stretch marks on my shoulder/chest/armpit area since I was 17, stretch marks on my ass since 23, butt fat/cellulite at times, boil scars at 28/29 and it gets worse and worse over the years with various issues). I don't think I received much positive female attention after high school, maybe there were a few girls in college who showed some interest or attraction (not directly or explicitly like some girls in high school or when I was 13 or a few girls online in my 20s post college), but I was really unattractive toward the end of the year (bloated face, dry hair, etc. Lips were always dry even before though. I remember these big guys making mock lip smacking sounds and yelling, "fucking faggot" at me one day, if I didn't lick my lips or apply lip balm people would indirectly comment about my lips and if I did apply lip balm it was obvious and licking them especially made it drier so I couldn't win no matter what I did and I tried to figure out for years how to fix the problem).

I have smashed into the wall permanently at 39. Not that I was ever consistently attractive but, in terms of my face on certain days/in certain 'eras' I think I peaked at 25, maybe 23. I really loved being shown female affection when I was younger (in the 10th grade and before the 8th grade I did like it when white girls showed interest but after that, until maybe 20, I didn't really care whether or not white girls were interested in me since I was interested in black women and they weren't really my type. Then again, I remember having a crush on Fred from Angel in the 12th grade and even some girl in my class in the 11th grade at one point, I think, and I wouldn't be surprised if there were others, I'm speaking from memory and it was a long time ago. I can think of a few white girls in high school who were really sweet. It might have been different if it was women of color since my friends; one black or at least mixed with it and 2-3 Indians, and I talked about black girls, Indian girls, Latino girls, etc.).

All children are cute