Misterix intro
Posted: Fri Jun 13, 2025 1:04 am
Girllover, AoA: 4-13, prefer 11-13. Non-exclusive, but with main attraction to minors, had fell in love only with minors.
I realized I'm a MAP in 2017, after reading a topic related ebook (don't remember the name). Then I learned the story of Masha Babko. She is married now and very antipathic to MAPs. She is injured of society condemnation. She had made 3 suicide attempts when she was teen. From the way she's talking seems that her psyche is not ok.
I was a member on other forums, mostly on Nymphetomania, I left from there twice because of not good communication, partly my fault, but I didn't see a perspective for any serious project there.
MY LIFE
I was bullied from the first grade. Don't have friends, not socialized at all. After primary school I was transferred to a small religious school with no girls in my class.
I had an experience with a boylover from 10 to 15 y.o. He was tricking me for touching my genitals, was hugging me, nothing more. This was a negative experience for me, not as much as the mainstreem point of view claims, but I feel it worst because I had no other sexual experience in my life. I don't want to make a claim on this case, because I have libertarian views ans don't agree with the current punishment system. I would be fine with just a moral compensation. This boylover also gave me many good things, teahed me, was helping me in life. In some cases it's better to just forgive. I understand it was something that got out of his control. Except me he had another student with whom probably he did even more and till today they are in good relationship.
When I was 17 I fell in love with a 12 yo girl from the school, unrequited. I suffered from this for 5 years, then I tried to meet adults in dating groups on social media. But no success, because we were in different countries, no meetings in real life. In the country I live the culture is different, we are minority here. And I want to relocate. So I can only date people from other countries related to me.
From the age of 17 I started to own radical eating ideas: raw food diet, fruitarianism. Quickly I became vegan and stayed like this for many years. Later I started to use Soylent and other same drinks that replace meals. Finally I realized these all are eating disorder. Soylent is useful for traveling, but not as regular meal.
From the age of 15 my grades dropped, I finished school very difficulty, started university but couldn't continue, also I chose the wrong subject to study. I stayed closed in the house for years, exiting few times per month. I have porn addiction, habit of new info and news reading too much but not acting, and the last 2 years I had workaholism for making movies, it completely captured me. I started to see only negative things, sea and nature no longer made impression on me, and this led to terrible consequences: I planned the repairing of my house incorrectly and made wrong decision to sell it, sold it for a very low price, this amount is not enough to buy a new one. Now I don't have a house and there is a big issue where to live.
I suspect to have autism spectrum disorder, which was not noticed until recently. As I know some MAPs have autism, so it's interesting to make a research about this.
In other topics I will describe 8 cases starting from 2020 and present a media project I worked from 2022.
I realized I'm a MAP in 2017, after reading a topic related ebook (don't remember the name). Then I learned the story of Masha Babko. She is married now and very antipathic to MAPs. She is injured of society condemnation. She had made 3 suicide attempts when she was teen. From the way she's talking seems that her psyche is not ok.
I was a member on other forums, mostly on Nymphetomania, I left from there twice because of not good communication, partly my fault, but I didn't see a perspective for any serious project there.
MY LIFE
I was bullied from the first grade. Don't have friends, not socialized at all. After primary school I was transferred to a small religious school with no girls in my class.
I had an experience with a boylover from 10 to 15 y.o. He was tricking me for touching my genitals, was hugging me, nothing more. This was a negative experience for me, not as much as the mainstreem point of view claims, but I feel it worst because I had no other sexual experience in my life. I don't want to make a claim on this case, because I have libertarian views ans don't agree with the current punishment system. I would be fine with just a moral compensation. This boylover also gave me many good things, teahed me, was helping me in life. In some cases it's better to just forgive. I understand it was something that got out of his control. Except me he had another student with whom probably he did even more and till today they are in good relationship.
When I was 17 I fell in love with a 12 yo girl from the school, unrequited. I suffered from this for 5 years, then I tried to meet adults in dating groups on social media. But no success, because we were in different countries, no meetings in real life. In the country I live the culture is different, we are minority here. And I want to relocate. So I can only date people from other countries related to me.
From the age of 17 I started to own radical eating ideas: raw food diet, fruitarianism. Quickly I became vegan and stayed like this for many years. Later I started to use Soylent and other same drinks that replace meals. Finally I realized these all are eating disorder. Soylent is useful for traveling, but not as regular meal.
From the age of 15 my grades dropped, I finished school very difficulty, started university but couldn't continue, also I chose the wrong subject to study. I stayed closed in the house for years, exiting few times per month. I have porn addiction, habit of new info and news reading too much but not acting, and the last 2 years I had workaholism for making movies, it completely captured me. I started to see only negative things, sea and nature no longer made impression on me, and this led to terrible consequences: I planned the repairing of my house incorrectly and made wrong decision to sell it, sold it for a very low price, this amount is not enough to buy a new one. Now I don't have a house and there is a big issue where to live.
I suspect to have autism spectrum disorder, which was not noticed until recently. As I know some MAPs have autism, so it's interesting to make a research about this.
In other topics I will describe 8 cases starting from 2020 and present a media project I worked from 2022.