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Just curious, but how did you discover your own attraction to minors of any age? As for me, to be able to understand why I feel the way I feel for kids (more specifically girls), we have to go all the way back to when I was six years old when I had sexual feelings and desires for the first time.

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I would later encounter more sexual activity as the years pass through seven-twelve years old.

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During my late-teens, I think I was either seventeen or eighteen, is when I discovered predator catching videos on youtube. I watched things like skeeter jean and the infamous show on dateline NBC called "To Catch a Predator" by Chris Hanson. In short, me watching those videos made me question and realize how backwards and hypocritical those so called "predator catchers" were and how insulting they were on the competence of young teens and younger saying how they're brains aren't "fully developed" enough for them to engage in sexual activity or any meaningful relationship with that kind of affection, as well as making other statements in regards towards young people's competence, which in all angered me and served as one of the catalyst of why I have the view I have of adults and young people being in that kind of relationship a good thing and not inherently harmful. The one last thing that really hit the nail in the coffin for me before I officially took the view I have and fully embraced the sexual attraction I have for young girls was a bunch of videos of pedophiles getting killed in many different ways from a website called the "ync.com". Now I don't necessarily condone sexual abuse against anybody, but I am the kind of person who has pity for people like that and don't agree with torturing or killing them as punishment for a number of reasons I will not get into right now. Watching those videos made me very upset because I told myself how backwards and hypocritical people are when it comes to adults liking children in a sexual way due to a lot of people having sexual feelings and desires from a very young age and fantasizing about adults, they may find attractive. Not only that, but it's how the world as a whole view an adult touching a child whether it was consensual or not as the same or even worse than murder. It got me very upset due to how the world wants to do all kinds of horrible things to you even if the sexual interactions were mutual. I understand that it's one thing if a child was brutally raped and murdered and people want to murder that person, but to go around and do that to a person, especially extra things like torture, to a person who touched a child consensually or not, especially if it was something mutual, is something that is unjust in of itself. So yeah, that is why I take the stance that I have in regard to child/adult sexual relationships. Now, when I was twenty years old which was over 2 years ago, is when I really started to understand why I felt the way I felt for young girls.

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Anyways, that is all. I really want to know you guys' story.

I think you butchering the majority of my post is not only unfair but insulting in a way. Insulting because it gives people the impression that I was writing erotica to get off or something or making stuff up. If you are going to butcher my post for the aforementioned reasons, we might as well label people's positive experiences such as the positive memories book and even CSA testimonials as "erotica" or "too much detail", since a lot of those testimonials go into more detail than I ever did in the majority of what you butchered. The details I gave weren't even that detailed compared to things in the positive memories book or CSA testimonials. I was simply describing what happened, how it happened, and how it made me feel. I technically did not break any rules here, but here you are, censoring what I'm trying to describe what is true here. Think about it this way, with all of the CSA testimonials out there, does anyone really censor the graphic details, even more graphic than anything I've ever described what you butchered, for having too much detail? No. Why? Because they are simply trying to let it all out, describing it in detail to make people have the full scope of what happened, why, and how it made that person feel. You made it seem like I was giving out graphic detail like penis in vagina or a cuck rubbing on something or someone. I didn't give any detail like that. Again, I wrote the way I wrote to not only give people the full understanding on what happened and why it made me feel the why it made me feel, but I wanted to see if people can give their accounts on why they had the attractions they had and see if they can relate to some of the experiences I had in detail. What you did is not only unfair, but unjust.