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I was happy but I should've known I was useless and garbage and abomination.

I'm sorry to hear that. If it helps even a little, I’ve also had suicidal thoughts from a young age. They weren’t related to the topics of this forum, and I never felt like an abomination, but the sense of uselessness and self-contempt has always been a constant for me. I’ve had a few sporadic attempts, some in the early years of high school, and a more serious one last year.

Not Forever wrote: Fri Aug 22, 2025 4:34 am I'm sorry to hear that. If it helps even a little, I’ve also had suicidal thoughts from a young age. They weren’t related to the topics of this forum, and I never felt like an abomination, but the sense of uselessness and self-contempt has always been a constant for me. I’ve had a few sporadic attempts, some in the early years of high school, and a more serious one last year.

Thank you

I don't know how to comfort you, because I know that when you decide to commit suicide, it is probably not very helpful to persuade you to hold on to life... But I still want to say that we really don't know whether good or bad things will happen tomorrow, but it is obvious that as MAPs, we can actually understand what our worst outcome will be. But no matter what, we still haven't seen what the best outcome is. So, I hope that each of us should at least look at what the picture and joy will be like if we have a good ending.