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Posted: Fri Nov 21, 2025 5:18 am
Hello everyone. I'm making an account here because I like boys and I guess I'd like to find a way to have overcome the sense of despair and defeatism I feel about the world we live in. I'm interested in MAP activism and in seeing what possible avenues there might be for us to actually start doing stuff in the real world and move beyond just making a bunch of obscure blog posts and always hiding in the dark. Even just reading about activism and outreach efforts gives me some hope for the future. I'd also like to simply have some community and be able to talk to relatively normal people in a forum that is not:
1, primarily populated by utterly detached chronically online insane people who think "boy lover" and "sadistic-pro-serial-killer-reality-shifting-Harry-Potter-Hitlerkin" are equally valid and legitimate identities(like what's left of the tumblr/twitter MAP communities)
2, for self hating anti-C people like virPeds who are delusional enough to think that if they just flagellate themselves enough and pinky promise not to act on their deep-seated yearnings then anti-MAPs will think they're one of the good ones and stop wanting to kill them
or, 3, a loli/shota forum like [...] mostly just about discussing fetishes and posting sexual images and videos. Not that there's anything wrong with that, but the section on that forum which is devoted to more serious/non-horny talk isn't really very fulfilling for me, it's small and most of the people on there have bad takes about everything and are almost as out of touch with reality as the MAPs still left on tumblr. Also, there's not really much discussion of real world activism or anything beyond fantasy.
Basically, I just want a MAP community where I can be myself and talk to people who seem decently relatable and interested in activism or social justice. A community of people I can talk to, feel less isolated, and maybe find a way to envision a brighter future.
I'm not out to anyone in real life but I find myself giving less of a fuck every year and desperately wanting to just be open and honest about who I am even if it means my friends and family all disown me. Living an inauthentic life is becoming unbearable. I'm also hoping to move to a less oppressive country in the near future when I have the practical means to do so, or at least to a country where rabid pedo-hysteria and anti-CP laws aren't such a huge deal as they are here in the anglo hellscape land of freedom and democracy.
As far as my specific interests and identity go, I would say I'm pretty much bisexual but exclusively homoromantic, and identify as a boy lover first and foremost. I experience lust for girls(and adult women) sometimes but have zero interest whatsoever in romantic relationships with them, and don't really find myself attracted to them in an aesthetic or emotional sense like I do boys, who are the closest thing I have to a passion in life and the ultimate source of meaning and beauty in the universe as far as I'm concerned. My AoA is pretty wide, roughly 5-16ish, but boys in that liminal pubescent stage around 11 or 12 or so are my favorite.
I don't wanna give too many details about my personal life out yet, at least not until I'm in a somewhat safer and more secure state, but I'm in my 20's and have a background in philosophy and literature. I'm also pretty leftwing politically but it's hard for me to care that much about normal political activism when most leftists would be just as happy to lynch me as the fascists. I don't want to give in to complete misanthropy or nihilism either, but it's really hard to bring myself to get involved in mainstream political orgs full of people who I know would detest me and kick me out if I were open about my sexuality.
I'm thinking about trying to move to Germany or the Netherlands at some point in the future because they have some of the cutest boys and at least seem to have once been relatively progressive towards boy lovers and sex normalization in the 70's/80's, but I don't know. I figure maybe if they used to be decent places for boy lovers and are generally pretty progressive then maybe they'll be the most likely to be receptive towards a future pro-MAP movement, but I hear they can be super repressive these days, so maybe not. Almost anything is probably better than a country in the anglosphere though.
If anyone has any questions or recommendations for me let me know.
1, primarily populated by utterly detached chronically online insane people who think "boy lover" and "sadistic-pro-serial-killer-reality-shifting-Harry-Potter-Hitlerkin" are equally valid and legitimate identities(like what's left of the tumblr/twitter MAP communities)
2, for self hating anti-C people like virPeds who are delusional enough to think that if they just flagellate themselves enough and pinky promise not to act on their deep-seated yearnings then anti-MAPs will think they're one of the good ones and stop wanting to kill them
or, 3, a loli/shota forum like [...] mostly just about discussing fetishes and posting sexual images and videos. Not that there's anything wrong with that, but the section on that forum which is devoted to more serious/non-horny talk isn't really very fulfilling for me, it's small and most of the people on there have bad takes about everything and are almost as out of touch with reality as the MAPs still left on tumblr. Also, there's not really much discussion of real world activism or anything beyond fantasy.
Basically, I just want a MAP community where I can be myself and talk to people who seem decently relatable and interested in activism or social justice. A community of people I can talk to, feel less isolated, and maybe find a way to envision a brighter future.
I'm not out to anyone in real life but I find myself giving less of a fuck every year and desperately wanting to just be open and honest about who I am even if it means my friends and family all disown me. Living an inauthentic life is becoming unbearable. I'm also hoping to move to a less oppressive country in the near future when I have the practical means to do so, or at least to a country where rabid pedo-hysteria and anti-CP laws aren't such a huge deal as they are here in the anglo hellscape land of freedom and democracy.
As far as my specific interests and identity go, I would say I'm pretty much bisexual but exclusively homoromantic, and identify as a boy lover first and foremost. I experience lust for girls(and adult women) sometimes but have zero interest whatsoever in romantic relationships with them, and don't really find myself attracted to them in an aesthetic or emotional sense like I do boys, who are the closest thing I have to a passion in life and the ultimate source of meaning and beauty in the universe as far as I'm concerned. My AoA is pretty wide, roughly 5-16ish, but boys in that liminal pubescent stage around 11 or 12 or so are my favorite.
I don't wanna give too many details about my personal life out yet, at least not until I'm in a somewhat safer and more secure state, but I'm in my 20's and have a background in philosophy and literature. I'm also pretty leftwing politically but it's hard for me to care that much about normal political activism when most leftists would be just as happy to lynch me as the fascists. I don't want to give in to complete misanthropy or nihilism either, but it's really hard to bring myself to get involved in mainstream political orgs full of people who I know would detest me and kick me out if I were open about my sexuality.
I'm thinking about trying to move to Germany or the Netherlands at some point in the future because they have some of the cutest boys and at least seem to have once been relatively progressive towards boy lovers and sex normalization in the 70's/80's, but I don't know. I figure maybe if they used to be decent places for boy lovers and are generally pretty progressive then maybe they'll be the most likely to be receptive towards a future pro-MAP movement, but I hear they can be super repressive these days, so maybe not. Almost anything is probably better than a country in the anglosphere though.
If anyone has any questions or recommendations for me let me know.
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