Bday! LOVING life for first time in 20 years...
Posted: Mon May 18, 2026 5:18 am
A bit of a rant/vent post, but here she be!
Since coming out to at least one member of my family, and since accepting my being a YAP, for the first time in 20 whole years I actually feel grateful for being alive. I'm able to talk to kids and teens online without feeling ashamed and the responses I get from sharing music or hobbies that we both have is just...like...I'm literally crying over it. Every time I make a new friend and they state how much I've helped them JUST by being a friend is crazy. Some have no one to talk to, and I seriously feel like I'm finally making a difference. I have a reason to keep living.
My anxiety is down, my nightmares have declined, and I'm no longer having PSI thoughts. Memory is enhancing too. I am finally able to feel alive again.
Since coming out to at least one member of my family, and since accepting my being a YAP, for the first time in 20 whole years I actually feel grateful for being alive. I'm able to talk to kids and teens online without feeling ashamed and the responses I get from sharing music or hobbies that we both have is just...like...I'm literally crying over it. Every time I make a new friend and they state how much I've helped them JUST by being a friend is crazy. Some have no one to talk to, and I seriously feel like I'm finally making a difference. I have a reason to keep living.
My anxiety is down, my nightmares have declined, and I'm no longer having PSI thoughts. Memory is enhancing too. I am finally able to feel alive again.