I suffered traumatic oppression from people aggressively limiting me as a minor
Posted: Wed Aug 12, 2026 9:59 pm
When I was 13 that was when I had my first online armchair therapist randomly lecturing me about how old I was and why I shouldn't do certain things like sex, drugs, and alcohol. They told me I was wrong for wanting that. Well I hadn't forgotten about that person because it seemed to hurt me in my soul. "I am too.... young to make my own decisions?", but of course I was too young to consent anyways, right... because I was a minor I was incapable of making long term decisions correctly. The fact he said that was enough to hurt however what hurt even more was being told "you're bisexual? Well you aren't old enough to feel that way." I remember my best friend and my mom saying it, then apologizing, yet it still set a precedent. Because when I was 16 my dad said to my mom "He's too young to go through depression"
I certainly couldn't have sex with strangers either, nonono. That would eb a detriment. Well ironically enough I knew that the adults in my dms were making me feel more loved than my own parents and even the stranger online who is considered correct and helpful. From time to time I didn't understand why people thought I was naive. I just thought that because the online strangers were so plentiful they were probably right and it hurt so bad. It drove me into hating my age and people who were my own age, because I thought they were stupid. Keep in mind it all comes from the adults who were in my life. I remember some online Redditors telling me "I'm no better than other kids and thats what separates me from them and why I'm lesser"
I couldn't win. I was driven to the point I simply sat in my bathtub and started crying my ass out because I felt so insecure and self-hating.
Yeah, whether the adults who did things with me as a child online were bad or good i just don't care about that and I never did. WHat I cared about was my self-esteem and autonomy and most people reeeeallly don't seem to get that.
I certainly couldn't have sex with strangers either, nonono. That would eb a detriment. Well ironically enough I knew that the adults in my dms were making me feel more loved than my own parents and even the stranger online who is considered correct and helpful. From time to time I didn't understand why people thought I was naive. I just thought that because the online strangers were so plentiful they were probably right and it hurt so bad. It drove me into hating my age and people who were my own age, because I thought they were stupid. Keep in mind it all comes from the adults who were in my life. I remember some online Redditors telling me "I'm no better than other kids and thats what separates me from them and why I'm lesser"
I couldn't win. I was driven to the point I simply sat in my bathtub and started crying my ass out because I felt so insecure and self-hating.
Yeah, whether the adults who did things with me as a child online were bad or good i just don't care about that and I never did. WHat I cared about was my self-esteem and autonomy and most people reeeeallly don't seem to get that.