hazard⚠warning says hello!
Posted: Wed Oct 30, 2024 4:04 am
I am a 20 year old para. I go by any/all pronouns.
If I were to be honest, I realized I was a para in July 2024. Before, I used to detest such thoughts. I thought there was something wrong with me. Other individuals were attracted to peers within their age group or those who were older. I fell for anti logic instead of caring about real life survivors. Instead of listening to them and experts. I now know you can't cure this, but you can try to be responsible.
I felt strong feelings towards the MOTHER MCs since I was 10. At first it was romantic, then it became sexual when I was 12. It hasn't stopped. I just acquired more knowledge of it. In August 2020, I became so enamoured by them that I wanted to shift to their reality somehow. Make things work even though it would move me to tears. After all these years of shame, I don't feel too bad anymore. I have to hide it from the public, but I do the same with everything else.
I look back sometimes. I don't have to worry about expectations anymore. I'm an artist now. I love music. I love writing. I enjoy stuff. I don't need splendour. Yes, I'm awkward. That's OK. That's who I am.
If I were to be honest, I realized I was a para in July 2024. Before, I used to detest such thoughts. I thought there was something wrong with me. Other individuals were attracted to peers within their age group or those who were older. I fell for anti logic instead of caring about real life survivors. Instead of listening to them and experts. I now know you can't cure this, but you can try to be responsible.
I felt strong feelings towards the MOTHER MCs since I was 10. At first it was romantic, then it became sexual when I was 12. It hasn't stopped. I just acquired more knowledge of it. In August 2020, I became so enamoured by them that I wanted to shift to their reality somehow. Make things work even though it would move me to tears. After all these years of shame, I don't feel too bad anymore. I have to hide it from the public, but I do the same with everything else.
I look back sometimes. I don't have to worry about expectations anymore. I'm an artist now. I love music. I love writing. I enjoy stuff. I don't need splendour. Yes, I'm awkward. That's OK. That's who I am.
