MAP Forum

Hello, this is my first post in this community from what i remember.

In every sites I've been [edited - R3], i have barely expressed fully my peaodphillia aside of lusty thoughts i don't approve anymore and experiences that are still close to my heart. Being in my late teens, i have still a lot of things to learn and i am rapidly approaching adult life so my contact with children will change drastically.

First, as a map, how map am i ?

Well, i believe that there is a form of natural love between a man and a girl, no matter the age, it is possible and when i talk about love, i am talking about romantic feelings and not sex, at least not yet The love of my life was a 8 year old girl and i and i am still in contact with her 11 year old friend, i would love to see them again but i am far. When i was still in school, thank god it had a girl that looked maximum 12 and she became my friend. If only i could see her again, and tell how beautiful her youth is in my eyes

The young girl is a sacred form of art that we as girl and childlovers should protect. Recently, i have rejected my lust and decided to focus solely on the romantic, pure and relationship aspect of the little girl. I don't obsessed over their bodies or how mature they behave anymore, i admire the young girl as it is as a human being and as something that is close to my heart.

Call me crazy, but i always say to people i meet that age doesn't matters, some agree because its true and some don't care or don't agree for obvious reasons... I am very fearless about the relationships i have with young girls, i don't care about what people think and i always give my honest opinion because someone gotta says what needs to be said, childlove is normal and i have nothing to fear.

No one should tell me what to love and what to hate, only me is lord of my own thoughts and ideas. People (normies) have a talent with being hypocritical and judgemental as fast as possible and it doesn't surprise. We live in a world where people watch and follow. My mind is looking at all this information hazard and think, where is the truth ? The truth can be found either within you or in places like where i am sharing my message right now.

Secondly, I said earlier that i have rejected my lust but in fact not really, i have embraced my erotica but i am not a dirty pervert anymore. Young girls have a distinct physical architecture that makes me sexually joyful ! Simplistic forms and small overalls makes me feel the virginity of these young souls.

To finish as i am slowly becoming tired for now, one thing to remember,

Love is eternally natural and those that do not understand it are the ones that find comfort in the dust.

-Migoos2

Welcome to the Chat log

I completely agree with what you’re saying. It’s interesting that you became so accepting of it so easily. A lot of my guilt comes from my past relationships with young girls. Never sexual, but I had genuine feelings for these girls.The weird thing about it is that the 8 year old had such feelings for you but it sounds like you had to separate yourself to save your ass. Society is weird like that. A girl will genuinely have feelings for you and then once the world finds out she’s put through a brainwash until she believes they told her. I met a 12-year-old on Facebook on some group. A post said comment your name and if someone likes your comment, add them. So I did after she liked my post. Thinly she messaged me saying hi and then she thought I was cute. We talked for a bit until she went to to bed and I don’t know why, but once I pulled up, her Facebook account I relieved myself because I I had grown deep feelings for her or I don’t know why to be honest. it made me uncomfortable with how much I liked her because I knew deep down it was wrong. We talked the next day about music life and ourselves. We video chatted and both realized that we were both in the same predicament. She was taken from her home because her mom used heroin and so she was moved house to house because nobody wanted to deal with her. my mom had Just attempted suicide so she was put into a mental hospital so I was staying with my abusive stepfather. She was staying with her abusive grandfather. I guess we trauma bonded about our situation. As time went on we became closer even though I hated myself for dating someone so young but she would always say love is just a number so I stuck around because she made me happy. She had been sexually abused when she was younger so she was a bit sexually permissive. She had gotten in trouble with the law because she was selling her nudes to random guys on the Internet. She would always ask me if I wanted some, but I would always deny because I truly didn’t want any. I just wanted her. We were so happy together. She was bullied so bad when she was sent to a group home. We were each other’s emotional support system. I would keep her away from drugs and alcohol and just we would keep each other on the narrow path. I Was extremely suicidal and she would always remind me that I was worth living. We were all we had. That was the weirdest summer of my life, but one of the happiest. One day it slipped out to my stepdad and so he Confiscated my phone and told her we were done. I talked to her from time to time, but we didn’t talk anymore for the most part. I was so in love with her. When she went back to school, she started dating someone else and I would have nightmares about her being with someone else. Wake up crying a bunch of shit. That was what scared me. Was why do I have feelings for someone so young? One day I was snooping on her Facebook and i came across a picture of her sitting on a bus next to her boyfriend. I’m not attracted to boys and so it was the weirdest feeling ever because when I looked at the boy, he looks like a little boy to me. Just a child. But when I looked at her my brain comprehended a fully developed woman. That was the most surreal moment of my life I pushed that memory far away for a long time. a year later, I commented a post on her Facebook account and she said that being abused as a little girl really fucked her up. I said I’m so sorry to hear that and she called me a pedophile. we talked here and there but things were never the same. I still think about her from time to time. She was my best friend. And so it makes me think are people brainwashed into believing that or did they just mature? Did she turn on me because she was told and told again that I was in the wrong even though personally I believe my heart was in the right place. Sorry about the rant, but it’s interesting to hear someone so accepting of themselves. I still struggle with my identity around it. I wish I was more like you where I was OK with what I am, but I’m not. Good luck to you man. I wish you the best

First of all, thank you for the story and honest thoughts. I really you'll find a little friend that will truly love you and stay with you forever and ever !

Secondly, i really think that young kids are getting brainwashed to the core when they get caught dating good people by being told all the time that they could die if they let that man/woman in their life or even just telling them all the time that they are getting manipulated. It is unfortunate that common minds don't and doesn't want to understand our feelings, my entourage didn't judged me and except few no one knows about my deep attraction to young girls.

Thirdly, today for some reasons where i always go at they brought two little girls in the main room and they visited with the adult that took care of them. When i saw them, i wasn't excited when i saw them or anything, in fact i am very relaxed when i see young girls. They looked around 4-5 years old and they were so funny hahaha, i interacted with one a bit and she was nice. She told me her name that i already forgot. I just silently dreamed about all the little adventures i could have with these beauties ! brownskin curly haired girls <3

Coming back to your situation, something definitely happened behind the scenes after you guys lost contact...i feel sorry for those that lost their soulmates because of our unbalanced civilizations.

Good luck to you too, you'll find your little girl one day, peace .