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Envy is a slow poison. The sweet sensations that others' joy resonates feel like an insult to my existence. The thing within me is entirely envious, and I can feel it as if it were entirely my own. I want to be happy for others' love; I want to be proud of their achievements; I want to alleviate ...

Whenever the feeling of lust engulfs me, I think of her, she who showed me there is more to this place than just confusion and suffering. The lust for love was so great I fell for her completely over the most mundane of instances, but her boldness invigorated me, her touch calmed my fear, and her ...

I have experienced a prolonged denial of myself, and it has broken me severely beyond recognition. I don't know who I am because I've spent too much time trying to be pleasant to those who never truly cared about me beyond a thing to be seen and not heard. Now, I am afraid of becoming something I ...

Being attracted to someone is normal, regardless of who it is, and if you are uncertain if these feelings are genuine, then you can try to get to know them better. That is, of course, if they want to and are willing to get to know you as well. It is also important to understand the taboo of such a ...

It is a damned if you do, damned if you don't situation. In a cynical way, all humans are sadistic for subjecting their children to suffering by bringing them into existence, but since beauty can manifest through that suffering, we collectively tolerate life regardless. I don't intend to argue with ...

Would you consider dreams paranormal? I often do, as they are clearly observable in reality, yet they are completely intangible. Perhaps my understanding is due to ignorance, but some instances feel very real, almost too real, and it disturbs me to ever want to sleep again, but eventually I must ...

Thank you for sharing these experiences. I hope for your family's perseverance through this ordeal.

I am encumbered by a desire to simply let go of my life and self. I know in doing so will cause irreversible damage to people close to me and perhaps beyond, but that concern is gradually fleeting to my annoyance. Sometimes I feel my consciousness loosen and become something different, yet familiar ...

Despite everything chaotic and uncertain, pedophilia is one of the few things that ever felt a semblance of natural to me. It hurts to know how vehemently opposed it is while simultaneously knowing how much damage it's caused.

I used to think that no longer being physically attracted to someone meant I was a shallow person, but compared to other relationships I witnessed, I viewed myself differently. I also began to wonder if being in a relationship indefinitely was even a healthy thing. I like to imagine my emotional ...