Dealing with Guilt Over Health Risks, Faith, and Procreation

[Brain O'Conner]

(This was summarized by Grok AI for easier paragraph making prompted by me)

Hi everyone,

I’ve been struggling with intense guilt and shame lately and could really use some support or shared experiences. I believe in God, and that shapes how I see things, but it’s clashing with what I’ve learned about young kids having sexual feelings and desires. Evidence—like my own experiences growing up, stories from others I’ve known or found online, and studies—shows kids as young as six or seven can have these feelings due to adrenarche, with puberty starting around eight or nine being normal. I get that it’s natural, but the shame hits me hard when I think about health risks tied to early puberty, like a higher chance of breast cancer from longer estrogen exposure, and even more so because sex is tied to procreation in my faith. Younger kids also face higher pregnancy risks, which makes my attraction feel wrong, like it’s reinforcing a perversion.

I’m attracted to early pubertal or developed kids, especially those in the single-digit range, and even prepubertal kids since I believe they can have these feelings too, triggered by exposure or physical stimuli. But my primary preference is those younger, more developed kids. The guilt grows when I think about kids who might not have those feelings yet but can still have physical responses—it feels selfish, like I’m taking advantage of their exploration, even though I think exposure can awaken those attractions. I doubt myself sometimes on how true that is, and it spirals into feeling like a perverted person who deserves hell, especially with the procreation angle and health worries fueling that judgment.

I’d love to hear how others cope with this guilt, especially if faith, health risks, or the procreation purpose play a role. Any tips on finding peace or reframing this would mean a lot. Thanks for being here.