Self-publishing

[John_Doe]

Would anyone consider self-publishing a novel with child/teen-adult romance (or a sympathetic portrayal of the 'MAP struggle') as a theme or a non-fiction book about the ethics of AMSC, the stigmatization of minor attraction, etc?

I was wondering because I should probably try to write another children's novel but I think I've lost my ability to write, I can't be excited about it since I know virtually no one would read it and I can't make any money off it (in theory I might have a chance if I could publish it anonymously but I don't think I can), still, I have no other source of income which is why I'd even entertain the idea of trying again when I've already failed 2 times (3 if you count my non-fiction book for adults). I'm turning 40 soon and the shame/anxiety of being middle-aged is so overwhelming I probably have to try just to deal with that (to be doing something, even knowing it will fail), I have no idea how my parents, my father especially, are going to react to my 40th birthday (I still act like a shy/awkward teenager, in a lot of ways, I can't be 40). I'm expecting some kind of 'talk' or something because they're obviously not going to live for much longer and I can't leave the house/interact with people outside, etc. The panicky depression and despair I've felt about being middle-aged and having no possible hope of ever, ever having emotionally intimate sex with a woman I'm attracted to, even just a one-night stand, since last night has been OVERWHELMING, truly surreal, most of yesterday was bad as usual but I could enjoy a movie and generally cope (on top of unrequited attraction, new scars discovered today didn't help, there's probably no fixing my erectile dysfunction). I was up until near midnight last night trying to process how things could have gone differently if I didn't receive constant indirect criticism about my appearance everywhere I went as a young man that made me self-conscious about my appearance and even more reluctant to approach girls and the bizarre random internet fame 'after' that that made my ever looking for a one night stand or hiring another escort (maybe one who used her authentic picture and was open to kissing) 'impossible.' I think I could handle being 40 and a lifetime of unrequited attraction if it weren't for the regret over how things could/would have otherwise gone (without the constant critique/mocking of my appearance or the internet obsession/invasion of my privacy. Even if I had failed miserably in terms of attracting a mate, I wouldn't have to deal with the coulda shoulda woulda blues. This isn't the thread for this but if anyone can offer any advice on how to deal with mid-life/aging regrets or general regrets about a past that can never be changed I'd appreciate that). Sorry to go off-topic. Another thing that dampens my enthusiasm is that, if I had any chance of selling, I would probably have to avoid characters who shared my pan-hedonistic ideology but it's harder for me to invest in/commit to something without being able to connect it to the ideas that I'm really excited about, to express my views through that.

Anyway, if anyone self-published a novel centering around a child/teen-adult romance, especially if it was fantasy or science fiction, or a non-fiction book about de-stigmatizing AMSC/minor attraction there's a good chance I would buy it.

If anyone is interested, you could actually get a dozen people on here to each write a short story or essay and compile them into one book (kdp is one self-publishing platform, the one I've used in the past).

[Brain O'Conner]

Would anyone consider self-publishing a novel with child/teen-adult romance (or a sympathetic portrayal of the 'MAP struggle') as a theme or a non-fiction book about the ethics of AMSC, the stigmatization of minor attraction, etc?

I was wondering because I should probably try to write another children's novel but I think I've lost my ability to write, I can't be excited about it since I know virtually no one would read it and I can't make any money off it (in theory I might have a chance if I could publish it anonymously but I don't think I can), still, I have no other source of income which is why I'd even entertain the idea of trying again when I've already failed 2 times (3 if you count my non-fiction book for adults). I'm turning 40 soon and the shame/anxiety of being middle-aged is so overwhelming I probably have to try just to deal with that (to be doing something, even knowing it will fail), I have no idea how my parents, my father especially, are going to react to my 40th birthday (I still act like a shy/awkward teenager, in a lot of ways, I can't be 40). I'm expecting some kind of 'talk' or something because they're obviously not going to live for much longer and I can't leave the house/interact with people outside, etc. The panicky depression and despair I've felt about being middle-aged and having no possible hope of ever, ever having emotionally intimate sex with a woman I'm attracted to, even just a one-night stand, since last night has been OVERWHELMING, truly surreal, most of yesterday was bad as usual but I could enjoy a movie and generally cope (on top of unrequited attraction, new scars discovered today didn't help, there's probably no fixing my erectile dysfunction). I was up until near midnight last night trying to process how things could have gone differently if I didn't receive constant indirect criticism about my appearance everywhere I went as a young man that made me self-conscious about my appearance and even more reluctant to approach girls and the bizarre random internet fame 'after' that that made my ever looking for a one night stand or hiring another escort (maybe one who used her authentic picture and was open to kissing) 'impossible.' I think I could handle being 40 and a lifetime of unrequited attraction if it weren't for the regret over how things could/would have otherwise gone (without the constant critique/mocking of my appearance or the internet obsession/invasion of my privacy. Even if I had failed miserably in terms of attracting a mate, I wouldn't have to deal with the coulda shoulda woulda blues. This isn't the thread for this but if anyone can offer any advice on how to deal with mid-life/aging regrets or general regrets about a past that can never be changed I'd appreciate that). Sorry to go off-topic. Another thing that dampens my enthusiasm is that, if I had any chance of selling, I would probably have to avoid characters who shared my pan-hedonistic ideology but it's harder for me to invest in/commit to something without being able to connect it to the ideas that I'm really excited about, to express my views through that.

Anyway, if anyone self-published a novel centering around a child/teen-adult romance, especially if it was fantasy or science fiction, or a non-fiction book about de-stigmatizing AMSC/minor attraction there's a good chance I would buy it.

If anyone is interested, you could actually get a dozen people on here to each write a short story or essay and compile them into one book (kdp is one self-publishing platform, the one I've used in the past).

It's funny that you mentioned this because I was making a story of love interests between a child and adult named "Adventurous". Do you have email or discord I can share this with you?

[John_Doe]

Would anyone consider self-publishing a novel with child/teen-adult romance (or a sympathetic portrayal of the 'MAP struggle') as a theme or a non-fiction book about the ethics of AMSC, the stigmatization of minor attraction, etc?

I was wondering because I should probably try to write another children's novel but I think I've lost my ability to write, I can't be excited about it since I know virtually no one would read it and I can't make any money off it (in theory I might have a chance if I could publish it anonymously but I don't think I can), still, I have no other source of income which is why I'd even entertain the idea of trying again when I've already failed 2 times (3 if you count my non-fiction book for adults). I'm turning 40 soon and the shame/anxiety of being middle-aged is so overwhelming I probably have to try just to deal with that (to be doing something, even knowing it will fail), I have no idea how my parents, my father especially, are going to react to my 40th birthday (I still act like a shy/awkward teenager, in a lot of ways, I can't be 40). I'm expecting some kind of 'talk' or something because they're obviously not going to live for much longer and I can't leave the house/interact with people outside, etc. The panicky depression and despair I've felt about being middle-aged and having no possible hope of ever, ever having emotionally intimate sex with a woman I'm attracted to, even just a one-night stand, since last night has been OVERWHELMING, truly surreal, most of yesterday was bad as usual but I could enjoy a movie and generally cope (on top of unrequited attraction, new scars discovered today didn't help, there's probably no fixing my erectile dysfunction). I was up until near midnight last night trying to process how things could have gone differently if I didn't receive constant indirect criticism about my appearance everywhere I went as a young man that made me self-conscious about my appearance and even more reluctant to approach girls and the bizarre random internet fame 'after' that that made my ever looking for a one night stand or hiring another escort (maybe one who used her authentic picture and was open to kissing) 'impossible.' I think I could handle being 40 and a lifetime of unrequited attraction if it weren't for the regret over how things could/would have otherwise gone (without the constant critique/mocking of my appearance or the internet obsession/invasion of my privacy. Even if I had failed miserably in terms of attracting a mate, I wouldn't have to deal with the coulda shoulda woulda blues. This isn't the thread for this but if anyone can offer any advice on how to deal with mid-life/aging regrets or general regrets about a past that can never be changed I'd appreciate that). Sorry to go off-topic. Another thing that dampens my enthusiasm is that, if I had any chance of selling, I would probably have to avoid characters who shared my pan-hedonistic ideology but it's harder for me to invest in/commit to something without being able to connect it to the ideas that I'm really excited about, to express my views through that.

Anyway, if anyone self-published a novel centering around a child/teen-adult romance, especially if it was fantasy or science fiction, or a non-fiction book about de-stigmatizing AMSC/minor attraction there's a good chance I would buy it.

If anyone is interested, you could actually get a dozen people on here to each write a short story or essay and compile them into one book (kdp is one self-publishing platform, the one I've used in the past).

It's funny that you mentioned this because I was making a story of love interests between a child and adult named "Adventurous". Do you have email or discord I can share this with you?

I can't send you a private message and I don't feel comfortable posting it here.

Is it something that would violate the site's terms of service if you posted it in Writer's Retreat?