I feel terrible

[harrydubois666]

I don't know about you all, but I feel terrible for being a MAP. I know that it's relatively normal, I even read that 30% of men could be considered MAPs according to several studies, and also I'm a hebephile which technically isn't even considered a disorder but I still feel guilty. In many cultures thoughout history it was seen as normal but I wonder if I'm telling this to myself to make me feel better.

I feel guilty for keeping this dark secret from my friends and family. I read Crime and Punishment by Dostoievski and I could relate with the protagonist because he felt so anxious and terrible having to hide his crime from everyone he loved. Only one person knows I'm a MAP and that's my best friend, who's also a hebephile, and he's one of the kindest and friendliest people I know irl. But still, I can't help but think about this stuff.

I like browsing imageboards too and I talked about this, most people said that it's not really a big deal and that my sexuality is no one's business, but anyways what do you guys think? I really don't like hiding stuff but I don't have any other choice.

[OnionPetal]

Welcome.

I feel guilty for keeping this dark secret from my friends and family.

What is so 'dark' about your secret? You want to do harm? If you just feel pure love, that doesn't seem so 'dark.'

I read Crime and Punishment by Dostoievski and I could relate with the protagonist [...]

But didn't he murder two people? What was your crime? You felt warm and fuzzy? You need to re-frame. Feeling love is a very good, positive thing. Just please follow the law. But emotions are not illegal.

what do you guys think? I really don't like hiding stuff but I don't have any other choice.

As I heard a wise lady once say, 'We all need a few secrets to keep happy.'

[harrydubois666]

Welcome.

I feel guilty for keeping this dark secret from my friends and family.

What is so 'dark' about your secret? You want to do harm? If you just feel pure love, that doesn't seem so 'dark.'

I read Crime and Punishment by Dostoievski and I could relate with the protagonist [...]

But didn't he murder two people? What was your crime? You felt warm and fuzzy? You need to re-frame. Feeling love is a very good, positive thing. Just please follow the law. But emotions are not illegal.

what do you guys think? I really don't like hiding stuff but I don't have any other choice.

As I heard a wise lady once say, 'We all need a few secrets to keep happy.'

I haven't broken the law and I don't plan to do so, in fact I've never in my entire life acted weird with minors and everyone I know can agree. But still here in the west being attracted to them is probably worse than murdering, and I feel bad about it probably because of internalized pedophobia

[TheHamilplexOfficial]

im not sure what you mean by dark secret. being attracted to someone is not "dark" society is making you think it is. it is not. you have done nothing wrong. now yes its ok to be scared, because antis can and have been extremely barbaric in the past, but they have 0 reason to come after you if you havent done anything wrong

- Toby | He/It/They/Xe | MAP and necro | listkeeper | "So long and Goodnight"

[Theendoftheline]

I don't know about you all, but I feel terrible for being a MAP. I know that it's relatively normal, I even read that 30% of men could be considered MAPs according to several studies, and also I'm a hebephile which technically isn't even considered a disorder but I still feel guilty. In many cultures thoughout history it was seen as normal but I wonder if I'm telling this to myself to make me feel better.

I feel guilty for keeping this dark secret from my friends and family. I read Crime and Punishment by Dostoievski and I could relate with the protagonist because he felt so anxious and terrible having to hide his crime from everyone he loved. Only one person knows I'm a MAP and that's my best friend, who's also a hebephile, and he's one of the kindest and friendliest people I know irl. But still, I can't help but think about this stuff.

I like browsing imageboards too and I talked about this, most people said that it's not really a big deal and that my sexuality is no one's business, but anyways what do you guys think? I really don't like hiding stuff but I don't have any other choice.

Id also wager that a lot more than 30 percent of men are maps. You cannot tell me that most men don't secretly find 15 to 17 hot af theyd just never in a million years admit it because its social suicide.

[OnionPetal]

Id also wager that a lot more than 30 percent of men are maps. You cannot tell me that most men don't secretly find 15 to 17 hot af theyd just never in a million years admit it because its social suicide.

A lot of teens in that range are biological adults, so yeah, most teleiophiles will find them attractive. A very high majority of them. We also hear about 'youth and fertility' being attractive attributes throughout human history. However, the percentage of people who would be classified as a 'MAP' depends on how you're going to define the term. If we are talking about people who are primarily attracted to minors, then the number suddenly gets a lot smaller. And if we further restrict the identity to exclusive MAPs (e.g., someone who only likes hebes), then the number gets even smaller. So the term MAP can technically be used as a general descriptor for everyone who has the capacity to find a legal minor to be attractive. But in practicality, it's more commonly used to describe a certain orientation or preference towards certain ages.