Sanjjula

[sanjjula]

I am Sanjjula, GL 18+ months. I have loved little girls ever since I was a kid myself. My first crush was in preschool, beautiful blonde girl in a wheelchair. So, if I look at a photo of her now, I still find her pretty. It seems weird that people expect you to stop being attracted to kids just because you are no longer a kid yourself. If anything, it's weird not to. If I liked her back then, why wouldn't I still like her now? It strikes me as weird that people like to compare us to zoophiles and necrophiles. I don't remember where I first heard the term "pedophile", but I thought it meant "kidnapper" or something. When I learnt the truth from a Quora post, I was instantly sympathetic. That let me to Psychforums, where I cried reading stories from pedophiles about their experiences with the extreme prejudice. I had never used any social media before, but I created accounts on the sites I could think of to try to find pedophiles and emotionally support them. The largest community was on Twitter, where people would get banned all the time and then come back on new accounts. I took it upon myself to advocate for my new friends, arguing with antis on the site. I soon found myself attracting the attention of famous accounts like Larry Sanger and some appearing in YouTube videos made by antis "exposing" the community as well as a DailyMail article "Britain's most notorious"—quite the compliment. Talking with these pedophiles, I realized that I am one as well. I designed the nepipillar logo (like the CL butterfly, but a caterpillar for nepiophiles). I also co-founded the Geography Club community and, until earlier this year, served as administrator of Open MAP Community.

I don't understand how people can be so awful to pedophiles, if I never was, even before I realized that I am one. And, to be frank, it depresses me knowing that many of our own people would hate us too if they weren't pedophiles themselves. Although nonexclusive, I am afraid I may never find a suitable wife, if I am unable to truly love someone due to being worried that she would hate me if she knew about my orientation. The only thing that comes close to matching pedophilia's importance in that way for me is veganism.

[DANAT4T]

Beautiful introduction.