I'm a 20 year old male and I consider myself a pedophile. I have a sexual preference for girls 13 or younger. I wasn't always attracted to them. Before I was 16, I had a sexual preference for adult women. I began masturbating and having sexual fantasies when I was 11 and they were about adult women. I would go on porn sites when I was 12 or 13 and I would masturbate to MILF porn and women with big breasts and butts.
When I was 16, I started to look at porn actresses who had small breasts and butts, and I masturbated to them and eventually became attracted to them. I later discovered loli hentai and I became attracted to lolis.
I've told people this story, they claim that porn didn't change my preferences, I was always a pedophile but just didn't discover it until I was 16. Is this true?
Can pedophilia develop from porn addiction?
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Bluebird97
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Re: Can pedophilia develop from porn addiction?
This is something I've asked myself. what I always ask myself is. Was I already a pedophile who repressed his desires so much he had never thought about them. Or did seeing a child in a sexual way, then flip a switch and turn me into a pedophile. Truth is I'll probably never know. I just know I am now. And have to deal with it. I've done very well in handling my porn addiction but my attraction to little girls still remain.
Re: Can pedophilia develop from porn addiction?
How did you handle your porn addiction?Bluebird97 wrote: Thu Aug 20, 2026 3:32 pm This is something I've asked myself. what I always ask myself is. Was I already a pedophile who repressed his desires so much he had never thought about them. Or did seeing a child in a sexual way, then flip a switch and turn me into a pedophile. Truth is I'll probably never know. I just know I am now. And have to deal with it. I've done very well in handling my porn addiction but my attraction to little girls still remain.
Re: Can pedophilia develop from porn addiction?
I don't think porn causes it but it can I think make someone aware of parts of themselves they weren't aware of before.
I saw a program once where a gay man said he always felt different and struggled with relationships, especially the sexual side of relationships. Then in his 20s he discovered the gay community and gay porn and after going through a period of shock and self disgust the pieces fell into place, he was gay. It wasn't the porn or community that turned him gay but it was the community and porn that made him realise since before then he had never been exposed to gay relationships or community or porn. I've heard that is also common in communities such as some strict religious communities where gays "don't exist". Of course they do, some realise they are gay and just can't be gay while others never realise it at all. I don't know if it's still true but I heard in Russia there are no gay men either, same reason, I expect it's more relaxed now.
I saw a program once where a gay man said he always felt different and struggled with relationships, especially the sexual side of relationships. Then in his 20s he discovered the gay community and gay porn and after going through a period of shock and self disgust the pieces fell into place, he was gay. It wasn't the porn or community that turned him gay but it was the community and porn that made him realise since before then he had never been exposed to gay relationships or community or porn. I've heard that is also common in communities such as some strict religious communities where gays "don't exist". Of course they do, some realise they are gay and just can't be gay while others never realise it at all. I don't know if it's still true but I heard in Russia there are no gay men either, same reason, I expect it's more relaxed now.