HI im Nathan 🤗

[nathan222]

hi I'm Nathan I'm not actually new to the forums like those i fell pretty good here i just em not sure cause of my autistic like personality what i can say and what not other then the fact that i know what I can say i terms of my own safety and opsec

i want to meet new people here to engage in conversations and stuff, give my experiences a place to be expressed without any repressions and such
in a community that is not illegal or something but genuinely is conversing and doing something useful and cool you know

there is many things i will probably not be allowed to say even tho I'm pretty based if it is about security(OPSEC) ......tho i think its more about the site itself i think I'm not sure........

I'm generally kind i hate society but love people
things i can write openly that i like:
science
rational thinking
cooking
eating, sleeping, not giving a f☠☢k, fun, craziness,
my attraction is focused towards girls that are ages 5 to 14 i like adult woman as well but significantly less i have a gf around 5 years together i meet her i don't know if mods will allow me to spell it out here she was pretty young when we first meet she don't mind she is supportive and she understands me and how it all look from our perspective cause she knows how it looks because of me showing her

I'm 20yo+- something something dude i like lil girls i had and em having lil friends (i did not do anything sexual with them i done things that were almost on the edge cause i just can't help myself in doing controversy......yeah..... they don't mind i know them to this day they don't care and say it was and is fun) i have strong sexual and as well sensual attraction to lil girls they whole majestic appearance and personalities i love the simply they child like minds i have a cousin i play often doing fun games other stuff she knows probably who I'm and we just play together normally and all but her looks are just eating me going thru me like I'm an open book

i had a couple of experiences in child hood with older people and close my age they were sexual of course
when i was like around 7 or 8 even i was at my mothers friend house she had a daughter she was like 15 16 she wanted to "help me" iksde to use the bathroom and touched me there and tickled me to i remember it being ok i was not stressed or anything only thing that caused a lil stress with this situation was that it was something new for me and i was naked and all that but it was not cause of negative emotion more excitement like ones

there was and episode when i was 10/11 when a 17 yo friend was playing with me and proposed to show each other wee wees and he was of course bigger then me lmao and it was like neutral i actually told on him☠ (with i regret cause it was my autism that did not understand how this all thing works and wanted to see why i should not tell this by telling....yeah he is ok nothing bad happen to him cause of that (I'm sorry man))

other this time pretty bad experience happen when i was 12/13 and were in a sports club and were left alone with around 19 yo "friend" that almost forced me to blow him it was horrible i was struggling next two weeks to work through it now i don't give a shit and if i will meet him i would not care but for the sake of it will confront him about it

i also had many many experiences with almost all my cousins when i was a kid there is to many to talk about all of them so i will live it like that

if anyone have questions i will listen


and there is a lil chance that you might know who my persona is on the net

[Lennon72]

Welcome. I am amazed at how many autistic people are MAP. I don't think there is any correlation though.

[BLueRibbon]

Welcome, Nathan!

Welcome. I am amazed at how many autistic people are MAP. I don't think there is any correlation though.

There are notable correlations with MAP identification and autism. MAP/trans is another one. I plan to connect with researchers in the future in an attempt to investigate this.

[NotTrueToMyself]

Hi Nathan!

Good to see another proclaimed rational thinker. I guess that’s part of the reason my AOA starts at about 9ish.

My brain fries if I speak to kids too long that haven’t developed the capacity to think logically.

[nathan222]

Hi Nathan!

Good to see another proclaimed rational thinker. I guess that’s part of the reason my AOA starts at about 9ish.

My brain fries if I speak to kids too long that haven’t developed the capacity to think logically.

yes i like rationality i don't have a problem with kids and talking to them to long like u said but i certainly like and prefer lil girls that are above average IQ
cause im myself above average logical and analytical IQ its around 145 witch is huge and rare(not rare rare but still(needed to build myself up here sorry lmao haha don't call me narcissistic pppllliiisss) lol im also good at reading people..... back in the days i was horrible at this especial in middle school still em struggling with it but em significantly better cause i learned myself in obsessive mode lmao about psychology for fun and better functioning and cause its interesting
🝏🝏

[NotTrueToMyself]

Hi Nathan!

Good to see another proclaimed rational thinker. I guess that’s part of the reason my AOA starts at about 9ish.

My brain fries if I speak to kids too long that haven’t developed the capacity to think logically.

yes i like rationality i don't have a problem with kids and talking to them to long like u said but i certainly like and prefer lil girls that are above average IQ
cause im myself above average logical and analytical IQ its around 145 witch is huge and rare(not rare rare but still(needed to build myself up here sorry lmao haha don't call me narcissistic pppllliiisss) lol im also good at reading people..... back in the days i was horrible at this especial in middle school still em struggling with it but em significantly better cause i learned myself in obsessive mode lmao about psychology for fun and better functioning and cause its interesting
🝏🝏

I'll shut up and not put up my IQ

Yeah, I used to be a mall watcher. I loved to sit in the mall and just watch people and try to figure them out. I wasn't popular at ALL in middle school. First I was dealing with when I was SA when I was 10 and then dealing with my burgeoning MAP sexuality. It was also a time when you DID NOT admit to being gay and I really enjoyed watching the other boys shower after PE..so yeah.

I hid it all behind being the biggest smartass in the school and being that kid that everyone hated for ruining the bell curve on exams. I loved elementary...after I went into 6th..I hated school till I got out of high school.

[nathan222]

I'll shut up and not put up my IQ

Yeah, I used to be a mall watcher. I loved to sit in the mall and just watch people and try to figure them out. I wasn't popular at ALL in middle school. First I was dealing with when I was SA when I was 10 and then dealing with my burgeoning MAP sexuality. It was also a time when you DID NOT admit to being gay and I really enjoyed watching the other boys shower after PE..so yeah.

I hid it all behind being the biggest smartass in the school and being that kid that everyone hated for ruining the bell curve on exams. I loved elementary...after I went into 6th..I hated school till I got out of high school.

i hated school of course the middle school was the worst i was border-bullied to not say directly that i was bullied primary school was moderately ok
the high school was actually the best period of my life not cause of the school tho ha ha school was settled if it is about monkey brain students behaviors....................
it was grate cause in that period i meet many lil girls that were my friends and done goofy things with me especially controversial.......i have high nonconformity factor iksde and i was (of course only if the person was ultra random or it was semi obvious that nothing will happen) just yapping and
"trolling lmao" people with my lil friends lil help about the pedophilia centered stuff to just piss of people or trigger reactions it was risky but mostly hilarious ..................yeah
i once invited some to my house(and it was not one time iksde) only to bake cakes with them llmmaaoo or just walking in town doing goofy or going to their houses when they parents were gone to watch movies and do other things fun related............. eeeee i actually can't talk what i was doing and em doing so transparently and informatively i think its understandable hehe................