Hate

[Black Mirror]

○ Hate is every beating, mockery, and every scar, both physical and mental. It's the thing that dwells just behind the eyes, ready to destroy every offense in its path. We should be working towards no longer facilitating the means by which such hate is produced, but how? I've been trying to understand how for so long now because I am still angry with everything after all these years. I feel aged by this hate for life and myself, but I don't care to find solutions anymore for I am just simply enduring it now.

● "Waste away then," it says.

○ I hate this thing almost as much as I hate the evil beings that want to destroy me and those like me, but I do not want to succumb to that hate. I simply want to be myself whilst striving to become something more than what I currently am, but it just feels impossible. You try so hard to dig yourself out from that self-loathing pit, but they just continue to pile more dirt onto you. You scream, you curse, you hurl dirt back at them in a desperate act of defiance, but it's all in vain. You simply cannot endure any longer and submit to your fate as you are slowly buried alive.

● "Aha, ha, ha, ha! What a bitch."

○ Yes, a bitch who has endured enough abuse as a child, so I just don't have it in me anymore.

● "You're weak."

○ And you are a blight, a fucking evil bastard born from the hate that I can't seem to let go of.

● "Hate, hate, hate! Nothing but hate! Nothin' but hate for everything and everyone. You are hate, and I will make you see and feel exactly what you are."

○ I am much more than that.

● "Heh, heh—yeah sure, you keep telling yourself that. It's gotten you this far."

○ I am more than what they have done to me, and I am certainly more than just you.

● "You would've been dead a long time ago if not for me dragging your ungrateful worthless ass across this hell."

○ But I didn't ask for this life, yet you forced me to live it anyways!

● "Ha, ha, ha! Yes, whine and cry for me more, I love it so much."

○ I AM MORE THAN THIS HATE YOU FUCKING BASTARD!

● "𝘚𝘯𝘰𝘳𝘵𝘴."

○ I am... am... nothing...

● "Nothing... what?"

○ Nothing... just nothing.

● "Pfftt, Aha, ha, ha! No shit! Tell me something I don't know."

○ That means you are also nothing.

● "... okay?"

○ yeah...

[Lightie Twinkle]

Deeply touching..

[Aspire6]

Thank you for posting all of these, I've read every one and find them very impactful and full of a deeper meaning.

[Black Mirror]

Thank you both for reading my stories and sharing your feelings. I've rewritten this one to better express the emotions behind it, and I may do the same for the others when the opportunity allows.