Why my entire life is fuck!!!

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Ruby
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Why my entire life is fuck!!!

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Well first of all I was abused as a kid myself and I hated myself so I took my anger out on poor innocent younger girls as a kid because I hated girls and wanted to seriously hurt them.

Then I decided to snap out of that and changed my life around when I was a teenager.

Then at my last year of high school I admitted to a school counsellor that I was a pedophile.

Now I’m charged with Child Abuse Material and in the process of court to find it the judge is charging me or not. If I pleaded guilty I’m admitting to it or if I pleaded not guilty and goes to trial then be found guilty by the jury that would be fuck up shit for me.

My life is depending on the judge now to see what happens, I’m depressed, not sleeping and highly anxious and do think I should end my life.

So basically my entire life is fuck and I will be known as a pedophile for the rest of my entire life what a fuck up world we live in, Hate This World.

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Fragment
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Re: Why my entire life is fuck!!!

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Dutton didn’t win, so even if you get put on a registry it won’t be public. You’ll have some challenges, but you won’t be known as a pedophile to most people. Especially if you moved and started over somewhere.

I understand the feeling of wanting to die in this kind of situation, though. Especially while you’re waiting.

I wish you good luck.
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stay strong, one day things will get easier for MAPs 💕 sending love
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Re: Why my entire life is fuck!!!

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Ruby wrote: Sun May 04, 2025 10:47 pm
Then at my last year of high school I admitted to a school counsellor that I was a pedophile.

Now I’m charged with Child Abuse Material
Are these two things related in anyway. Doesn't counselors have patient confidentiality? Also, being a pedophile doesn't mean you automatically have cp. But obviously you did. Depending of what you said to the counselor, If the two are related i guess the counselor ratted on you.
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