I dont care anymore(vent)

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I dont care anymore(vent)

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I dont care about the stupid bullshit that antis and “victims” yap about. I simply do not care. My advice to pedophiles? Do whatever the fuck you want. Set the world on fire and watch it burn or be another cog in the machine, it doesnt matter what we do, by nature of simply having been born we will never be considered good enough and are no longer human, the worst of the worst, worse than terrorists and serial killers and even fucking genociders. Its honestly freeing, in a weird way, not being bound by human standards because you arent even considered human in the first place. You think that being a self hating virped non offending pedo who lives in the remote mountains or even commits suicide will make the antis even see you as remotely human or deserving of the bare minimum? It wont. Antis want to see you beaten, raped, tortured, homeless, jobless, family and friendless, harrassed, assualted, threatned, doxxed, stalked, kidnapped, improsioned, dead, simply for having been born. You only exist to be society's punching bag. We were born to die.

We didnt choose to be pedophiles. No one wakes up one day and goes “hey, yk what? I want to be apart of the single most hated and demonized and dehumanized minority group in the modern world and put myself in constant legal and social danger and doom myself to a life without love, sex, and companionship, or on the other-hand, a life of imprisonment, of torture, or even fucking death if I do seek out love, because why the fuck not, why not make my already miserable existance being a wage slave till im in a nursing home with alzehimers even more miserable, life needs to be even worse ;D!”

Don't even get me started on the bitches who claim that pedophillia is because of “pOwEr” or “ThE pAtRiArChY”. Ahh yes, the “””patriarchy”””, we jack off to toddlers because we hate women, because that apperantly makes complete sense??? And apperantly, we risk our literal lives and safety to even get a single kiss from a beautiful girl,just to feel loved and appreciated by the only group of people your heart is capable of loving, if even only for a second, knowing she possess the social and legal power to turn on you at any minute and get us decades in prison, tortured, or even murdered by vigillantes, because we are *check notes* power hungry? What fucking power do we have? Seriously, antis and victims love talking about how pedos are pedos because of “durr power dynamic” but outside of the occasional rich epstien type MAP, most of us are just regular ass lower and middle class adults living paycheck to paycheck just trying to get by, just like everyone fucking else. So seriously, what fucking power do pedophiles have?? Social power? Because last time I checked, everyone and their mom hates pedos and even coming out as a pedo, even a non offending and non contact one, puts a giant target on your back. Hell, even if you arent a pedo and are just “pedo coded” like being an age player or a pro shipper already puts you at a significantly lower social status. Legal power? Because the age of consent is well above the average pedos AoA, sometimes even at 18 with antis fighting to have it raised even higher, there is absolutely no legal defense for “csa” or “csam” and compared to other crimes, even more violent and severely impactful crimes, in too many cases, even fucking child murder or near child murder, carries a less harsh sentence then sex crimes, specifically child sex crimes. (Last time I checked, there is no child beating/child torture/child murder offender regristry, and there are no state “hospitals” like coalinga state prison designed to extend the prison sentence of child beaters/torturers/murderers).

What is this fucking “power” that antis/victims claim pedos desperately seek out? The power to get gang raped in prison?? The power to go homeless because no one will hire you due to your sex offender status? The power to get harrassed to the point of suicide by antis??? Seriously, antis and victims love to talk about how pedos are in it for “powerpowerpower”, what power?? The power to be burned alive by a violent mob?? Lmao wtf. And if its supposedly about “power” and “violence” and has nothing to do with sexual or romantic appeal, then we arent even fucking pedophiles then and pedophiles dont even exist. We are just sadists, and these so called “pedophiles” antis always bitch about are just magical fantasy creatures that are figments of our collective imaginations. Antis can fathom that there are people sexually attracted to feces, cars, obeseity, and vore, but absolutely no one on planet earth is attracted to children and anyone claiming to be attracted to children is just lying to cover up their sadism fetish?? If no one is actually attracted to children and that is somehow a trait that is impossible for any of the eight billion people on planet earth to possess(because its apperantly impossible to fall in love with or find erotic any human even a day under 18, but perfectly possible to get horny to and be in love with the fucking effiel tower??!😭), then we are pedophobes, not pedophiles, child haters, not child lovers, sadists, and all this “research” and “therapy” and “treatment” is a waste of time because we are all just mysognyists with a bdsm fetish or something??

We didnt do anything to be pedophiles, we didn't choose to be pedos, we cant stop being pedos, literally the only thing we did to be forced into this fate is to be born, thats it. And that alone is a good enough reason for the entirety of society to want us to be human punching bags and human toliets.

“Why dont pedophiles feel sympathy for “csa” victims?” Why should we? “Waaah, one time I got my penis sucked by some older guy after asking him to suck my penis and being a willing participant and that single non violent and non forceful blowjob that I willingly sought out and actively participated in “ruined” me for life so every single pedophile, even if they have never even commited a crime, should be tortured to to the brink of death and burned alive, and I will weaponize my victim status to get laws passed and increase social hysteria to the point where even having sexy thoughts about anyone even a day under 18 warrents the most violent form of torture and murder and will make simply being alive hell on earth” why should I feel sympathy for the people getting us tortured and murdered? Why should I give a single shit about their life ending blowjob “trauma” when even looking at fucking fictional anime girls or ai slop can get me decades in prison, detstroy all my relationships, make me go homeless and jobless and even get murdered by a violent mob? Csa “victims” constantly cry and complain about how pedophiles are so “cruel” and “evil”, and how they are just innocent little bebehs who nobody cares about or pays attention to that are basically gods gift from earth because one time 20 years ago some older guy groped their titties, then they turn around and gleefully clap as another nonce gets beaten to death in prison or set on god damn fire by a group of vigallentes or raped to the point of fatal injury with metal pipes and shit. Why in the actual fuck should I care about you and your “tRaUmA” when you want me to be brutally tortured and murdered for simply having been born(against MY consent when I was a literal minor, might I add, which also makes me a victim apperantly🙄). Sure, go ahead and whine all you want about how nothing is ever your fault and how all your problems in life from global warming to your finger nail chipping to your dads car breaking down are all because of “THE PEDOS” and your “trauma” and how it is your “trauma” that makes you a bloodthirsty violent person with a craving for death and violence and has aboslutely NOTHING to do with you as a person, but you know what that makes you? A sadist, and according to your pedo=sadists theory, puts us in the same damn group.

You bitch and whine about the “cruelty” and “evil” that was dealt to you then expect us to care about your “pain” as you cheer on human beings being set on fucking fire. I dont give a shit if what im saying is “cruel” and “evil”, me simply exiting my mothers womb is already a form of “cruelness” and “evilness” to the general population, of the worst kind. I am asking a serious question here, to the csa “victims”, why the fuck should I give a single shit about your “trauma” as you happily giggle watching news stories about pedos getting violently gang raped or beaten to the point of hospilitization or death on the tv? Why should I care about your “pain” as you cheer on pedos getting tortured and murdered by violent mobs/vigillantes? Why the fuck should any of us care? Why have any sympathy for the group of people actively weaponizing their privilleged(yes, I said privilleged, idc I said what I said, if you are in a position of society so high up that simply putting on the water works can get a man fucking murdered then you are privilleged) social status to get us yk, murdered?? Pedos are burned alive, raped and beaten to death, tortured, imprisoned for draconian, ridiculously long sentences, ostracized, homless, jobless, friend and familyless, and even fucking murdered yet here come all these “victims” whining about how pedos being fucking BURNED ALIVE still isnt enough pain and suffering and murder to even compare to or make up for the “trauma” of seeing some old guys penis one time 3 decades ago. You ask for sympathy from us, you complain about how “cruel” and “violent” and “evil” we are, yet think your privilleged status as a “victim” gives you any authority to decide who counts as a human or who is just disposable trash, who lives and how dies, what group deserves mass genocide and what group doesnt. All this suffering, torture, pain, violence, and death, because one time you agreed to suck some guys dick at 15??? So I deserve to be tortured to death, fucking genocided off the planet like my life is worth less than the common dogs, despite never even breaking these shitty laws yall worship as a literal religion, because YOU decided to suck some guys dick two decades ago??? Tf??? And YOU are somehow the “innocent” “victim” in all this bullshit?? IM the power hungry one with all the “power” in this dynamic?!?

No amount of “justice”(torture and murder) will ever be enough violence or death to satiate the endless lust for violence of these so called “innocent victims”. All this yap from antis about pedo violence, yet the world runs on violence, THEIR world runs on violence. They claim that raping men with metal pipes and burning men alive and beating men to death is not “violence” that it is “justice”. But dont let them lie to you. That is violence. Sex is violence, justice is violence, everything and everyone is violence. That is humanity. Nothing a pedo does will ever be good enough for them, because simply having been born is already “life ending trauma” and makes you worse than satan himself, even though you once again, didnt ask to be a pedo, cant stop being a pedo, and dont even break any fucking laws, even commiting suicide will still have antis and “victims” complaining that the fact that you ever existed in the first place was already a form of “trauma” that never should have happened and destroyed lives. Not only do you deserve the worst forms of suffering and death for having been born, but even literal death isnt a strong enough punishment for the fact that you had the audacity to have existed in the first place(side note, strange how all this csa “trauma” is supposedly “life ending” yet all of them are more than alive and well enough to leave smiling emojis and comments about how “healing” it is on youtube videos and news articles of pedos being tortured and murdered??? You apperantly have permanent crippling life ending trauma but are alive and well enough to go out on the streets and assault and murder pedos? Strange that these “innocent victims” can somehow only have their “trauma” “healed” through saw level torture and murder, and even then, will still complain that there arent enough corpses to make them feel warm and fluffy inside??? Ho is you a vampire?? )

Not even just to “victims” but to society in general. You people dont even see us as fucking human, so why in the ever loving fuck should we abide by your “human” “morality”. If we are monsters for the mere virture of being born(which we never asked for, so why arent we locking all mothers up in prison for giving birth to children without their consent?) that alone frees us from the constraint of “human” “morality”. Why the fuck would I want to be human and subscribe to your morality in the first place, if your morality is that someone is an evil disgusting bad monster for simply having thoughts, that someone deserves decades in prison for pixels on a screen, that someone deserves to be tortured and murdered over a FUCKING BLOWJOB. That sexuality is so fundamentally magical and powerful and evil and special that any crime involving sex, no matter how non violent, non forceful, non traumatic, makes the criminal a monster worse than satan himself. That sucking some kids dick is worse than beating the shit out of that kid or locking him in a cage or shooting him to death in a school or starving him to death. That willing sexual pleasure is the worst form of violence and pain and suffering you can inflict on any human if they areunder the magical special holy number of 18. That a kid having an orgasm permanently destroys them. Why the fuck would I want to be “human” and subscribe to their fucked up morality, if this is the type of morality they subscribe to? If this is what being human is, then count me out, I would much rather be a monster. If the good humans are the ones beating and raping people to death and setting them on fire, and giving them decades in prison over FICTIONAL ANIME CHARACTERS?!? and the evil monsters are the ones giving kids orgasms and buying them presents and toys, or even just fucking talking to them and being a friend to kids??, then I will GLADLY accept being a monster over being a human. If this is what “humanity” is, then I want no part. If this is what “morality” is, then I refuse to subscribe to it.

If nothing we do will ever be good enough for these fucks or ever make up for the single biggest pedo crime of them all, being born, then why fucking bother with these people?Why try to fit in or compromise or work together or any of that shit when simply being born is single handedly the biggest crime to humanity. I meant what I fucking said about pedos not consenting to being born and mothers getting locked up for having children without the childs consent. It sounds ridiculous, but every single thing about pedo hysteria is fucking ridiculous, so why not? If this whole issue revolves around pedophillia and consent and children, then everyone deserves a slice of that victim pie, and those predatory women should get locked away for decades creating children, pedophile children specifically, without their consent. Im a victim, your a victim, we are all fucking victims. This is a victim world that runs on victimhood and who can be the biggest victim. If pedos being born is the biggest evil, then that also makes us the biggest victims, because we were forced into this world and forced into the pedophile status(as minors mind you) against our consent.

Antis say they hate pedos so bad, but they are hypocrites, if they really hated pedos so much, they would stop fucking breeding. Stop giving birth, stop producing children. Every child that is born has a chance of being a pedophile and every child that is born has a chance of ending up a csa “victim”, and if they really mean what they say when they say pedophillia and csa are worse than the most violent assualt, torture, and even literal death itself, then they better fucking proove it and put their money where there mouth is. Stop giving birth. End humanity and stop the human race from continuing in any way, shape or form entirely. No more children means no more csa and no more pedophiles. Yeah humanity will end, but pedophillia and csa are waaaayyy worse, so that is just the risk we society will have to take :D.

I simply do not care anymore. I have not broken the law and probably never will, but even if I did, but even if I did, beat me, rape me, torture me, murder me, it will be painful and awful, but it will never EVER make me believe in your anti/victim bullshit narritive. Fuck this shitty species, I hope it gets wiped out by a plague, and hey, if all the children are dead from plagues, then at least no pedophiles will be around to give them life long titty fondling trauma?

I swear to fucking god, we could give csa “victims” the decapitated and maggot filled rotting head of their “abusers” gift wrapped in a pink bow and glitter for christmas and they would still complain that the rotting corpse of their “abuser” isnt enough violence or death to make up for the “trauma” of getting their butt groped and pussy ate. Strange that csa “victms” are a group of people that can only be satiated through corpses, and even still complain that they are hungry for more murder and torture and it isnt enough “justice”, like they are fucking vampires or some shit, yet they are the “innocent victims” and we are power hungry violent monsters?? Wtf
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I feel broadly the same way as you.

If you could shift your written rage from 'stream of consciousness' to 'organized yet quietly seething', your writing would be suitable for publication on my site.

But please don't advocate breaking the law, even as part of a rant. That could be used against us.
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BLueRibbon wrote: Sun Oct 12, 2025 7:59 am I feel broadly the same way as you.

If you could shift your written rage from 'stream of consciousness' to 'organized yet quietly seething', your writing would be suitable for publication on my site.

But please don't advocate breaking the law, even as part of a rant. That could be used against us.
I feel his/her rants could be organized with examples into an article.
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I think I've seen victims who have opposed the hysteria. MAP acceptance could help victims because at the moment acknowledging a family or community member is a MAP is such a big deal that people want to sweep it under the rug. It's broader than that thing of closeted gays being loudly homophobic; there's a strong incentive to turn a blind to sexual abuse within the family. I think there's some common ground between MAPs and CSA victims, that's worth working on. Also I think there are plenty of antis which never experienced CSA (Tim Ballard, for example).
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It's a hell of a thing realizing that humanity is completely broken. Actually accepting that our species is built on all the evil is pretend to hate. The loving parents who abuse their children in the guise of "discipline" while turning around to spit venom at those who made children happy the "wrong way". Hypocrites who feign humility and virtue while excusing or participating in the greatest forms of cruelty imaginable in the form of prisons and social outcastng. Psychopathic vigilantes deluding themselves into thinking they are heroes. The opposite of "evil" is not committing evil in response, its the undoing of it, its becoming "good". They don't do that, they just engage in evil in a different direction.

Humanity is defined primarily by cruelty and hypocrisy. Any behaviors that seemingly show otherwise is busywork between banal acts of evil, or coping mechanisms to trick themselves into thinking they're not on the level of the monsters they were indoctrinated to hate. It's not cute or funny or interesting knowing they don't have original thoughts, feelings or desires, knowing they're most deeply held convictions are carbon copies of what almost everyone else has already felt before. It's the devastating realization that humanity has not made a single meaningful step forward since we developed language.

We've been to space, but we're just as ignorant and savage as we have been since we thought space was made of water held back by a glass dome on a flat snow globe Earth. Humanity is a disappointing failure that has only distracted itself with fake progress to hide the fact that we're still just basic animals pretending to be something more. It's just a form of hypocrisy.


(side note: isn't it interesting how the world seems to push people to becoming, or just says they are, the evil it claims to want gone? It's almost like people are trying to push people to becoming what they fear, or secretly wish, they could be, only to feel relief when that person is destroyed for it. like an indirect form of a sacrificial ritual to ease the mental burden of humanity knowing, on some level, that its actually truly evil. There was a character from an anime called Fate/Stay Night named Angra Mainyu, a child chosen at random to represent "all the worlds evils", sacrificed by his fellow villagers as a symbol so they could be seen as "good" by default, because they killed an "evil demon". But they created that "demon" from their own evil. Countless examples of this kind of thing in media, people causing the very problems they complain about and only being willing to respond with blind cruelty and violence.
a few more example off the top of my head is Asta From Black Clover being treated as an inherent monster because of his 5 leaf grimoire, and Slums folk from Gachiakuta being treated as barely human simply for being from the Slums. Bladerunner also deals with beings who are made to be seen and treated inherently worse than humans because they are "not human" despite almost everything about them being identical to humans. Most stories about people being treated as subhuman or inhuman monsters simply because they are defined that way, often by ignorant and cruel people who are hiding their own evils under fake virtue, mirror the plight of pedophiles so closely it's shocking that people don't notice it. It's hard to feel like it isn't intentional ignorance on their part. As if they're subconsciously expressing the feelings we've become painfully aware of.)

PorcelainLark wrote: Sun Oct 12, 2025 8:32 pmI think there's some common ground between MAPs and CSA victims, that's worth working on. Also I think there are plenty of antis which never experienced CSA (Tim Ballard, for example)
It seems wild how the two groups that you'd think would be the most unrelatable to each other are actually more relatable than those who should be more neutral. I guess it goes to show that it's not "sides" that matter the most here, it's experience with the subject matter. outsiders, spectators really, have no personal context with pedophilia or child abuse, so they have no way of having a truly nuanced view of it, while even "victims" at least have one side of the experience to relate to, so even that can forma bridge between them and those who seemingly victimized them. its strange how common intuition is laughably inadequate to explain how human relations actually work. I wonder how many other human relations are so intensely unintuitive. Maybe horseshoe theory applies more broadly than people think...
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TheOtherKindofPride wrote: Sun Oct 12, 2025 9:08 pm It's a hell of a thing realizing that humanity is completely broken. Actually accepting that our species is built on all the evil is pretend to hate. The loving parents who abuse their children in the guise of "discipline" while turning around to spit venom at those who made children happy the "wrong way". Hypocrites who feign humility and virtue while excusing or participating in the greatest forms of cruelty imaginable in the form of prisons and social outcastng. Psychopathic vigilantes deluding themselves into thinking they are heroes. The opposite of "evil" is not committing evil in response, its the undoing of it, its becoming "good". They don't do that, they just engage in evil in a different direction.

Humanity is defined primarily by cruelty and hypocrisy. Any behaviors that seemingly show otherwise is busywork between banal acts of evil, or coping mechanisms to trick themselves into thinking they're not on the level of the monsters they were indoctrinated to hate. It's not cute or funny or interesting knowing they don't have original thoughts, feelings or desires, knowing they're most deeply held convictions are carbon copies of what almost everyone else has already felt before. It's the devastating realization that humanity has not made a single meaningful step forward since we developed language.
I’ll just say this: the capacity for humanity to hurt other others different from them seems embedded in what it means to be social. Societies have always had some kind of outsiders or scapegoats in order to push the evil in society onto an acceptable target.

Humanity is currently destroying the ecosystem and itself wrt to climate change. The cruelty, the aggression of society is being directed towards the very nature we came from.

While I think there’s good in society, the evil being committed upon this planet outweighs the good.
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TheOtherKindofPride wrote: Sun Oct 12, 2025 9:08 pm (side note: isn't it interesting how the world seems to push people to becoming, or just says they are, the evil it claims to want gone? It's almost like people are trying to push people to becoming what they fear, or secretly wish, they could be, only to feel relief when that person is destroyed for it. like an indirect form of a sacrificial ritual to ease the mental burden of humanity knowing, on some level, that its actually truly evil. There was a character from an anime called Fate/Stay Night named Angra Mainyu, a child chosen at random to represent "all the worlds evils", sacrificed by his fellow villagers as a symbol so they could be seen as "good" by default, because they killed an "evil demon". But they created that "demon" from their own evil. Countless examples of this kind of thing in media, people causing the very problems they complain about and only being willing to respond with blind cruelty and violence.
This closely resembles the original meaning of the term "scapegoat".
21 And Aaron shall lay both his hands upon the head of the live goat, and confess over him all the iniquities of the children of Israel, and all their transgressions in all their sins, putting them upon the head of the goat, and shall send him away by the hand of a fit man into the wilderness:
22 And the goat shall bear upon him all their iniquities unto a land not inhabited: and he shall let go the goat in the wilderness.
 Leviticus 16:21–22
The scapegoat was a goat that was designated (Hebrew: לַעֲזָאזֵֽל) la-'aza'zeyl; "for absolute removal" (for symbolic removal of the people's sins with the literal removal of the goat), and outcast in the desert as part of the Yom Kippur Temple service, that began during the Exodus with the original Tabernacle and continued through the times of the temples in Jerusalem.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Scapegoat#Ancient_Judaism
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I agree with the general sentiment here. There are good people but society as a whole is cooked.
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