Personally, this is not how I feel about my MAPness. Maybe I don't have as strong nurturing instincts as others, but they are not replaced by sexual instincts. In the case of younger (3+) children, I feel an aesthetic attraction (magnet), for pre-teen boys it can become a romantic attraction (grey-sexual), and for teens it is more sexual. Especially the romantic attraction is to features —like a kind of boldness, gestures...— that are not correlated with nurturing, but rather with independency. I know some MAPs have strong nurturing tendencies.https://www.bbc.com/news/magazine-34858350 wrote: Cantor found that the brains of the paedophiles he studied were wired differently to non-paedophiles - something he describes as effectively a "cross-wiring" of the brain. "It's as if, in these people, when they perceive a child, it's triggering the sexual instincts instead of triggering the nurturing instincts," he says.
I am not absolutely certain about this because I don't know how to take care of children, even when I'm not attracted to them, and I still have some kind of intrusive thoughts. Watching them from a distance, without getting to know them, I think it has this effect on me where I worry too much about what I really feel towards them.
However, the most interesting point in his research is that he found a correlation between pedophilia and white matter, height and handedness, which are associated with early development (before birth). This gives some credibility to his hypothesis, even if the sample consisted of offenders. So I wonder, do you feel this is a correct interpretation of your MAPness?
